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Identity Crisis Resolved: I’m neither Gay nor Bi; I’m a tripper!

I had this question lingering in mind since childhood.

I’ve always had crushes on pretty or funny girls but people around me have branded me as gay.

This branding has made me visualize or dream of what people see as the perfect embodiment of a man... which caused me to develop “crushes” on guys who seem to fit into those ideals.

My attraction for women stayed the same however. Im only into pretty or funny girls; better if the girl is both.

At the same time, I also developed “attraction” for men who seem to embody the ideals society has taught me about.

For a very long time, I thought I was gay or at least a bi. Never did I decide to out myself for one good reason: I want to marry someday and have kids of my own.

Then one day, after visiting a gay porno site for several times, I was introduced to this term: tripper, a guy who only develops emotional feelings and love for women but for purposes of curiosity, he hooks up with other guys.

When I discovered that term, I was like, damn, that’s certainly I! How could I not see this all these ***** years!

After a few days of introspection, I realized that I never fall in love with guys and I only fall in love with women. Every time I hear a love song, I only remember the women I fell in love with. I don’t remember any of the guys I hooked up with!

And then the craziest realization came into mind: I only hook up with guys to satisfy my deep-seated insecurities... I feel as though that when a guy wants to hook up with me, I feel “desirable.” It’s tons easier to hook up with guys than with women. You just need a few casual conversations and that’s it! For women, you needed to court them weeks or months!

Another reason was my fear to hurt women’s feelings. Sure, I fall in love with them but I actually do not decide to be in relationships with them. I’ve only had flings that did not consummate into sex.

That changed in 2018 when I realized I need to change my perspective... or else I will never learn how to be sensual with women.

That year, I dated three beauty queens. And that opens a flood of wonderful things in my life! 

Because I used to think I was gay, my usual group of friends were mostly gays and girls. But somehow, something feels wrong. I don’t understand their conversations and I’m annoyed at their gestures and usual topics (rumors, showbiz lol). We didn’t get to talk about women!

When I started dating women, they started treating me differently until things got out of hand and I removed myself from their groupchat and blocked them!

Things have gotten better since then and I pledged to myself that I will only be friends with straight guys whose usual topics are also WOMEN!

I love my life now! Things came in full circle these past few years and now I’m confident with my sexuality.

I’m not closing my doors yet to M2M sex. It feels good eh! But whenever I’m in love, it doesn’t happen! LOL

Comments

  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    Sexual orientation is about SEXUAL attraction. Period. It's not about love, FYI.  So to claim that you're just a "tripper" because you don't fall in love with men is BS.  "Tripper" is NOT even a sexual orientation. LOL.  Moreover, you can't be straight because you love to have sex with men. 

    Enough of the DENIAL.  You're not straight. So which one are you?  Pili ka na lang:  Gay (homosexual) or Silahis (bisexual). 

    Of course, the answer is very clear to us.  It's just you who wants to deny the obvious. 

    But you can keep your head in your *****$ [pun intended]. LOL 
  • MountainBikerMountainBiker PEx Rookie ⭐
    You didn't get it. I thought I was sexually attracted to males. It turns out, it was just a weird form of "envy." I don't feel attracted to males anymore, I'm only attracted to females... pretty and sexy females to be exact.
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    You didn't get it. I thought I was sexually attracted to males. It turns out, it was just a weird form of "envy." I don't feel attracted to males anymore, I'm only attracted to females... pretty and sexy females to be exact.
    You mean you didn't get attracted to males so much that you inserted a pentel pen in your *****$?  

    LG, you've got receipts.  =)
  • MountainBikerMountainBiker PEx Rookie ⭐
    ClarkReid said:
    You didn't get it. I thought I was sexually attracted to males. It turns out, it was just a weird form of "envy." I don't feel attracted to males anymore, I'm only attracted to females... pretty and sexy females to be exact.
    You mean you didn't get attracted to males so much that you inserted a pentel pen in your *****$?  

    LG, you've got receipts.  =)
    I was attracted to myself. ;)
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    ClarkReid said:
    You didn't get it. I thought I was sexually attracted to males. It turns out, it was just a weird form of "envy." I don't feel attracted to males anymore, I'm only attracted to females... pretty and sexy females to be exact.
    You mean you didn't get attracted to males so much that you inserted a pentel pen in your *****$?  

    LG, you've got receipts.  =)
    I was attracted to myself. ;)
    Then why use a pentel pen to fuc$ed you?  You have your fingers. That does not sound you're attracted to yourself.  It appears you're attracted to the pentel pen.  =)
  • MountainBikerMountainBiker PEx Rookie ⭐
    ^^Does it matter? I have a very nice rounded butt... which is ***** fuckable lol. I dare not use my finger drilling anybody's orifice... It's filthy!

    #justwatchedsecretgarden1993
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    edited February 18
    ^^Does it matter? I have a very nice rounded butt... which is ***** fuckable lol. I dare not use my finger drilling anybody's orifice... It's filthy!

    #justwatchedsecretgarden1993
    It matters, LJ.  It matters because it's proof that you're gay.  Hate to break the news to you.  =) No straight men want their behind fuc$ed. Only gay men. And you're gay.  LOLOLOLOLOL
  • MountainBikerMountainBiker PEx Rookie ⭐
    ^^Then you don't know what a 'tripper' is.
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    ^^Then you don't know what a 'tripper' is.
    You mean "tripper" - closet or in-denial bisexual?  LOL

    Still, not straight. And still, you lose. LOL
  • MountainBikerMountainBiker PEx Rookie ⭐
    You're just playing with me. I swear to you, I don't fall in love with males!
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    You're just playing with me. I swear to you, I don't fall in love with males!
    Ateng, sexual orientation is NOT about love.  Akala ko ba abogado ka? Bakit hindi ka marunong magbasa? LOL.

    You have a SERIOUS READING COMPREHENSION PROBLEM.  [email protected] ka, yan sure na. LOL
  • hachibi118hachibi118 Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    dedmahin mo yang si clarkreid. sa utak may problema yan, wala sa sexual orientation.

    Dami na yan inaway dito kasi di siya makaGETS 😂
  • ClarkReidClarkReid Member PEx Rookie ⭐
    dedmahin mo yang si clarkreid. sa utak may problema yan, wala sa sexual orientation.

    Dami na yan inaway dito kasi di siya makaGETS 😂
    Says the one who keeps advantage of his "best friend".  So funny.  LOL.

    Anuna, ateng? 2020 na nasa closet ka pa rin?  Mabubulok ka niyan! LOL. 

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