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3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
Guys i really needed some suggestions i will accept all your replies bad or good need to share lang talaga what i felt these past few days; okay heres the story

The truth is i am a discreet gay! yup i am 21 now and i dont have the courage to say the truth to my friends and my family. kasi my philosophy in coming out is that i will not tell them voluntarily pero if they will ask me about it i will not lie.
Well my problem is not all about the closet thing. Sa totoo lang hindi ko pa talaga nasubukang magkaroon ng relasyon. Meaning no BF/GF since birth pa.
So heto na im working now in an american firm company bilang production worker. maykasamahan ako sa trabaho inaamin ko hindi siya ganoon ka gwapo pero my gosh the smile. everytime he smiled at me nasasabi talaga sa utak ko "***** THAT SMILE"
nakakatunaw ang smile niya. siya talaga iyong tipo ng tao na pag nagsmile siya saiyo mahahawa ka sa kanya at mapapasmile back ka talaga kahit bad ang mood mo.
Well these past few days parang im falling for him na, everyday i want more of him. [email protected] ganito pala ang mainlove.
Everyday sabay talaga kaming uuwi at nagkwekwentuhan kami ng mga anu anong bagay. nagkakatawanan i can say na medyo naging close na kami these past few days. feeling ko his comfortable to me kasi inaakbayan niya ako. at heto pa sabi niya malaki daw respect niya sa mga gays kasi kuya niya is gay.
my problem is that I AM GAY i dont know if its possible for a straight guy to fall in love to a gay. pero sana!!!!! di ko na talaga macontrol feeling ko guys.
what should i do?
kasi ako i dont have plans to tell to him what i feel. mjo okay na kasi sa akin to na we are friends and sharing each other's thoughts.
pero ika nga i wanted more eh!
please help me!!!:depressed:

Comments

  • if you want more, then you'd have to tell him you're gay. malay mo, he's also gay pala. start from there. you don't have to tell him right away that you have feelings for him.
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    thank you for your response
    i really have no courage in telling the truth
    sa pamilya ko nga natatakot ako na malaman nila ang katotohanan eh.
    pero thank you sa suggestion
  • orangepinkorangepink PEx Veteran ⭐⭐
    that's ok. it takes time to gather courage. there's no rush.
  • matri_XXXXmatri_XXXX PEx Veteran ⭐⭐
    you shouldn't be a gay!
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    matrixxxx how i wish i shouldnt be gay, sana nga ganoon kadali pero di mo talaga mapigilan. if you will really see me in person mukha talaga akong lalaki at hindi gay.
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    matrixxxx how i wish i shouldnt be gay, sana nga ganoon kadali pero di mo talaga mapigilan. if you will really see me in person mukha talaga akong lalaki at hindi gay.
  • ^Bro/Sis I agree with one advice that you tell him you're gay but then not your feelings right away. Sabi mo nga you want more e the only way is for you to say more of you hehe. Pero be ready for with it comes risks, either ma-accept niya or hindi. Good luck to you. Sabi nga ni Bebe Gandanghari aka Rustom Padilla "Be what you wanna be".
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    thank you for your suggestion. pero kasi talagang natatakot ako. siguro i should be contented muna sa relasyon ngayon.
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    at nangyari na nga ang hindi dapat mangyari

    naging bulong bulongan na kami sa work namin dahil daw palagi na kaming magkasama at may relasyon daw kami
    may narinig pa akong sabi ng kasama ko sa work patungkol sa akin
    " pwede pala siyang sumali sa miss gay"
    and mukhang nakarating sa kanya ang balita
    at ayon iniiwasan na ako
  • ^ awww... sorry to hear that :(
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    hay nako pagibig nga naman
    ang sakit pala:mecry:
  • Sweety_PaigeSweety_Paige PEx Veteran ⭐⭐
    So sorry to hear that... Ok lang yan, at least habang maaga pa nalaman mo na ganun pala siya.
  • 3pqlang3pqlang PEx Influencer ⭐⭐⭐
    pero bakit ganun still i cant let go of him?
    di ko siya maalis sa isip ko?
    sana alam lang niya
    kung ilang gabi akong hindi nakatulog dahil sa kakaistorbo niya sa utak ko
    ang effort ko na tumakbo para lang makita siya sa kanyang workstation
    ang hirap ng loob ko dahil sa pagtitimpi ko sa nararamdaman sa kanya

    *****
    ayaw ko nang mainlove ulit
    ginagawa kong ***** ang sarili ko
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