Thank you all again for all your advises. BF couldn't talk with Pastor...it's not his belief daw, and he doesn't see the point. He asked what else he could do to get me back. Whoah, may negotiation?! Pinaasa ako for 1 week, then he wouldn't push through pala!
At that moment, it dawned on me that he wasn't worth it. So I told him that if that's his belief, fine, my belief naman is not to take back cheating boyfriends. It's over.
That was a couple of days ago. He still texts and has a couple of missed calls, but I don't feel anything for him anymore. This would have probably played out differently if he did talk to Pastor, or if he didn't make me paasa for a week. But I don't care anymore.
So I'm single again. Like I was for 10 years, before I met him 3 years ago. What I will miss most is the companionship...we were kinda best friends. There's no one to talk to every night anymore or call when I feel like I have to share something or regularly watch movies with or eat at restos with. All my friends are married. My family and friends will definitely be surprised. I don't want to bad mouth him(he is a good guy in most ways); I'm prepared to just say it didn't work out, we were too different, etc.
I'll have to transfer to the Singles Scene forum now, haha. I know my clock is ticking because I'm in my late 30's, but I don't want to rush into another relationship (huwag naman 10 year wait ulit, hehe). I have to heal first. And I haven't cried...like the hagulgol cry to let it all out. For some reason, I can't. I just have this nonchalant/blase' attitude. I just think of my blessings though to make me smile

- I have my fabulous work, I am beautiful, I am sexy and life is beautiful.
Thank you so much to all those who wrote here. I have my girlfriends to cry on, but you guys can be really funny and add more perspective to a situation.

Mwah!