Dear PEXers, I need advice. I'm in a 2-year relationship right now. And the excitement has, well, fizzled out. Worse, I haven't really noticed this until I had an "encounter" with someone else.
I messaged this guy friend, whom I met years ago and have not spoken to in a long while. I congratulated him as he recently proposed to his girlfriend.
I don't know what has gotten into me. Maybe because I was bored, maybe I needed to feel excited about something again. One thing led to the other. And the next thing I know, we were having phone s3x.
And what's odd about the whole thing, is that I don't feel guilty. Rather than stifling this thirst for "excitement", I have actually grown hungry for more. Unfortunately, not for my current boyfriend, but for this engaged-guy friend of mine. I don't know if it's the age gap that "excites" me (he's 12 years my senior).
This is just so not me. I don't indulge myself to sexual acts, especially with people other than my boyfriend. This time, I just gave in.
I know all this is wrong. And I know, things between me and my boyfriend will never be the same. But in spite the things that happened and the things I am feeling now, I still wanna keep my boyfriend. He's still the one I wanna marry.
I want our relationship to "sizzle" again. I just don't know how. Please help.