is it the end of the line for me?

[maytimaws]

^^ Sayang.. walang Like button sa PEx.

And I thank you.

[ESCAPADE]

to start off 30 years old na ako. i have work pero its only contratctual.
the last time i went to a family reunion was last month. i saw my relatives even my cousins that are on the same age gap as i do. some of them are successful, some have permanent jobs na. and some are graduating. i cant help but get jealous of the fact that here i am. im already 30 and there is a lingering feeling that it's the end of the line for me. its like most of the opportunities already closed down on me..i wanted to continue my study but the last time i went back to my school to inquire they said that 8 years have passed and i need to start all over again.
im confused and at the same time i am depressed.

thanks for reading as i am just venting my feelings and hopefuilly someone will give a constructive comment on this one.

how did you become successful? what are the steps that you take?

It's never too late to study, plano ko din yan this year and I'm saving up for my tuition. I remember a friend who advised me when I'm going through a rough time I told him about my plans of going back to school and if it's too late, and he said something which I'll never forget -"eh ano naman kung mas bata ang magiging kasabayan mo kung mas magaling ka naman". All things start from something kaya gawin mo na ang kailangan mong gawin.

If you're depressed, wag magmukmok. This year, one of my elementary school batchmate died from a vehicular accident, he's only 29. That event made me reflect on my life and be thankful that I'm still here.

TS nood ka ng news dami mo makikita duon: kids dying of cancer, refugees running for their lives, mga taong nakulong o binitay - 10 or 20 years after napatunayang inosente pala. It's not the end of the line for you - believe me, millions of people will trade places with you.

TS gawa ka muna ng short term goal. Get a job that will make you financially stable for at least 3 years tapos dun ka kumuha ng pondo for your studies. Keep your job until makahanap ka ng profession na tugma sa kukunin mong course. Maging abala ka din like hobbies, may mapaglibangan lang para di ka ma depress, try getting involved with an organization or your local community, mag volunteer ka.

Dami pa sana ako isusulat pero eto na lang muna TS sana makatulong ako hehe

[juanito5354]

transferee ka ba from other school? PERO certain subjects lang hindi lahat.

kung same school lang din yung mga naiwan mo lang na subjects.

pag sinabi mo sa sarili mo hindi ko kaya titigil gumana utak mo,

PERO pag sinabi kaya mo dun gagana utak mo.
Hala kilos na! magsipag ka para mregular ka sa job mo. goodluck.
struggle within

[uzumaki_naruto]

i wanted to continue my study but the last time i went back to my school to inquire they said that 8 years have passed and i need to start all over again.

ayaw mo nun..
mga classmates mo mga freshie?

[petixmode]

nasa mindset rin kasi yan kung yan ang mindset mo TS na naniniwala kang hindi ka succesful yan ang pnaniniwalaan mo sa sarili mo at magdwedwell ka nalang sa sitwasyon mo hindi makakatulong sayo yan..

ganyan din ako ako pero nalampasan ko yan ngayon lang hehe hindi ko akalain.. ako naman itong nag 28 ako bigla nalang dumating ako sa point na oppsss mukang im not getting younger and mukang until now at my age wala pako masasabi kong maipagmamalaki ko talaga.. ayan yung may pressure sa akin sa pamilya ng father ko kesyo gusto nila magabroad ako kasi nga like you contractual din ako tapos graduate pa ako ng computer science tapos bread winner ako wala akong kapatid mama at papa ko pa dependents ko both walang work papa ko may stroke pa san ka pa haha.. pero alam mo naisip ko nalang kahit ganito ang work ko ito pinili ko kasi mas priority ko mabigyan ng oras ang pamilya ko kesa bigyan sila ng magarbong buhay hindi naman ako dios para isang pitik lang kamay eh maiaahon ko na ang pamilya ko sa hirap ng ganun kabilis!.. ngayon wala na kong pakialam kung ano expectations sakin ng mga kamaganak namin as long as i still provide for my family wala akong inaapakan na tao.. kahit sobrang hirap rin sakin na igiveup yung happiness ko which is my bf ginawa ko para protektahan sya sa pamilya ng papa ko ginawa ko at kinaya ko.. imbis na madepress ako at magmokmok dahil sa pangdodown na inabot ko ginawa ko natuto akong magplan at dumiskarte ng sarili ko walang tulong nila, since petiks ang trabaho ko and i have internet access research ako dito doon bout financial managing gusto ko matuto by reading forums then i act on it.. i take it as a challenge para sa sarili ko na patunayan sa kanila na kaya kong tumayo sa sarili kong paa..

ngayon ang naging goal ko is to save money for emergency fund namin ng mama ko target namin is hopefully to have 50k.. then kinunan ko ang papa ko ng health, life and accidental insurance na 5 yrs to pay hindi man ganun kalaki pero kahit paano insured ang papa ko.. bayad ko na yung 1 yr sa plan nya para incase na mahospitalize nanaman sya meron kaming card para sakanya less worries.. hindi yan alam ng pamilya ng father ko.. sorang blessed pa ako kasi kahit ilang beses muntikan na ako maalis dito sa work ko pero nasasalba parin ako haha dahil ang bait ng boss ko alam yung sitwasyon ko kaya ginawa ko since hindi parin ako pwede maging kampante save lang ng save.. natuto akong maging praktikal sa pag gamit ng pera nung una ang hirap magtipid pero later on ako na mismo sa sarili ko nadisplina ko haha.. hindi man halata samin pero at least hindi kami baon sa utang may savings pa kami sa bangko.. pagdumating ako sa time na ready na ako to go abroad at may sapat na pera na ako then gora na basta save lang ng save hanggang mareach ko ang goal ko.. ang gusto ko kasi tahimik lang ako pero mapera someday maachieve ko din yung dreams ko magkaron ng maraming investments at pera kasi gusto ko rin makatulong sa mga nangangailangan magugulat nalang yung mga kamaganak ng papa ko na nangmaliit sa amin na marami na pala kami pera pero muka kaming pulubi i cant wait to see that moment hehe..

Basta believe in yourself TS and be positive and most specially have faith in GOD yung dreams and goals mo matutupad mo yan basta sa kabutihan basta magtiwala ka ki lord at sa sarili mo go lang.. Hope yung story ko nakahelp sayo para mamotivate ka

[Zeitgeist699]

magcall center ka habang nag-aaral.

[mOOgliEzeth]

i guess it's not really going back to sch that is your problem because i think that you are thinking it is one of the best possible solutions to getting a better job. tama ba?

think of this: for all the years na wala kang makuhang matinong job for 10 years and being stuck in a life that doesnt go anywhere.. do you regret all of it?

i believe luck plays a big role in a person's life din. wag mahiya. keep striving. madali lang bawiin ng Diyos ang lahat ng success ng isang tao kaya huwag kang maiingit o magpadala sa yabang ng iba.