Hello sa lahat!
I'm just wondering if anyone here works for an NGO. Wala lang, I just want to have someone to gripe with. You see, I've been involved in NGO work since I was in college. Even if the pay was'nt good and i had to put in killer hours okay lang kasi iniisip ko na what I was doing serves a greater purpose. Yun bang kahit in my own little way alam kong I'm not being part of all this country's problems. Siguro for many this is being too idealistic not too mention being an outrightly stupid. Pero medyo iba rin kasi yung environment na kinalakihan ko. Anyways, so heto nakatapos na ko. And even if mas maganda yung mga opportunities sa private sector, I still chose to continue doing NGO work. Nung una talagang excited ako kasi makakapag-fulltime na ko, which means matututukan ko na yung mga pagbabago na tingin ko makakatulong sa'min. Unfortunately, I did'nt know that the reality check would come too soon for me. Ilang months pa lang ako, I had to face the reality na my "baby" proposal is'nt really that feasible, given the priorities ng organisasyon. Yeah right! In my four years in the organization I have seen how misprioritizing programs and budgetary allocation could be so easy for some senior NGO people. Oh well. Tapos ngayon ko nakikita kung gaano kabulok yung iba-yun bang tipong being in the social movement is a mere intellectual exercise, one big ego-trippin ride. Meron naman ding iba na garapal mangurakot. So much for social change, right? Oftentimes, I find myself at a crossroad. Will I continue to engage myself in this big hypocrisy? And I always end up with the same answer. I think I'll stick it out. In the end what matters na lang is if I continue to be firm with my belief that changes are needed and that they are possible. What matters most is that I continue to believe that the genuine desire to serve is the only way to liberate people. And what matters most is that I am true to the very people I serve. Amen.