Paluwagin niyo nga ang turnilyo sa utak ko

[alrem]

the more you describe things, the more dangerous it becomes... I hope it's not the same case when I last saw you???...

it's a different "case" isn't it? diba? diba? iba na yan?...

[Jameaux]

TS - the more you become yourself, the more you become a woman.

[adiposethoughts]

TS - the more you become yourself, the more you become a woman.

Toldja, babae ako. Hehehe.

So yaaaan. Napatunayan ko na ha?


Now... Back to regular programming.

[Jameaux]

Sige na nga, babae ka na nga.

[adiposethoughts]

Sige na nga, babae ka na nga.

Hahaha.

Like I said sa topic ko, I just need to throw my thoughts somewhere to gain insight and clarity. Buti na lang there's anonymity in pex. lol.

What I've learned?

There was a deeper reason why it became an issue to me that we weren't "talking". It was more of I was realizing that I myself was becoming boring. I felt the whole relationship was becoming dull "to my standards". I didn't like the idle time that was happening between us. It felt that we're starting to run a rat race, or some sort of routine, which for me was quite frightening. Within the nooks and crooks of my mind I was challenging myself to "evolve", to become someone new. In such a way that I don't plateau on a certain type of personality where both of us would feel that we're both predictable. It was a challenge to myself, which I was painfully groping for answers. That's why I had to humble myself and throw my thoughts here in pex. I knew from the very start that I might be putting myself in a vulnerable position. But I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, I'd find the answer that I was looking for to bring about peace in myself and in my mind.

Evolving is not easy. It's like a butterfly coming out of its pupa. Thing is, butterflies do that just once, but with people, they have to constantly evolve to keep up with the changes of time. People change. Thing is, most of them change because of a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening around them... a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening WITHIN them. Little number of people change through lifetime as a result of sincere effort and want to change because they would like to become a better person. A better husband, a better wife, a better partner, a better son, a better daughter, a better parent, a better worker, a better boss... a better friend.

I was aware that evolving was not a one time thing. I made this thread because I felt ALARMED. I felt that as a person, I was starting to plateau on my daily interactions with the people around me, especially my partner. When it should not be. People keep the people that makes them feel happy. And that was what I was seeking to be. To be a happy and FUN person. No dull moment. I could be ONE. No doubt. Ask my friends, I am fun. But if you get to be with JUST ONE PERSON for like, weeks... things start to become dull. No matter how fun you are. Things become dull because things become predictable. And that what I was trying to break. The predictability of our daily events. I mean, I have no problem if my partner is somewhat dull sometimes, women could tolerate that to a such an extent. (though he's not, he's always happy, he always try to do something that twists the day). On the other hand, I know I am an alpha woman, and my partner is an alpha man. In my mind I know that an alpha male needs constant "stirring", you know, something that keeps him on the edge. Like a roller-coaster ride, who wants to ride a roller-coaster that's plain and boring and is going on a straight line, right? Don't get me wrong. It's not just my partner that's looking for such a ride, but most of us. However, some, because of mediocrity or maybe due to lack of options, settle. And it sux to settle. I don't settle. And I would like to assume my partner doesn't settle either (don't underestimate your "enemy" nga, ika nga).

So, after all the soul searching, some reading, and a lot of analyzation, I believe I'm coming up with a new version of me. It's cute. It's funny. Hehe. And, if I will be with myself for days, I won't feel bored.

Funny, I remember this tagline I made for myself in pex more than a year ago.

"Fluid. Amoral. Ethereal."

For a time I've lived up to it and I believe I gave those 3 beautiful words justice. I now have realized that when it comes to living in this world, there should be constant progression as to who I am as a person. That "evolving" is my weapon, and is one of the things that would protect me from this evil, deadly thing called insecurity. Change is good. Change should be us.

Don't get me wrong. This wasn't just about me and my pursuit to be a better person for my partner. That is ridiculous. That would be pathetic. It was more of my pursuit to bring about a better version of me. For me. The change is subtle, nonetheless, unforgettable. Like in commercials, they don't show the same commercial for decades cos people get tired easily. Like in products, there's always a better version coming out, even sometimes showing the same product with a new packaging just to say that the product is undergoing change. Like SM, it never stays the same way in a quarter. There's always something new to look forward to, its facade changing as soon as it becomes predictable.

Like me, you've seen a side of me I've never shown before. But really, who can say here that he's already figured out me? Who can really say I really am female? Hehe. One pexer here might be right too. This dilemma could really be something that I was having some challenges with, or, this dilemma might be something that I made up to solicit for opinions.


Can anyone really tell, eh?

[Jameaux]

Clap clap clap. I dub you...

Ms. Curiousity

[adiposethoughts]

Clap clap clap. I dub you...

Ms. Curiousity

Thank you, thank you, thank you Jameaux.


AKA Mr. Like-My-BF-"DAW"

[Jameaux]

^

But you agreed?

In any case, I didn't want to be like your BF. I changed for the better. No offense.

[Meanie!!]

Comfort in silence.

Hindi naman kailngan habulin yung kwentuhan imo

If you think it's not working dahil hindi na 'ok' yung kwentuhan niyo, then think twice think thrice kung siya ba talaga

[boynext2u]

Here's my dilemma (oo, ngayon pa lang yun dilemma part. lol):
We're talking about something and nauwi kami dun sa part na sinabi niya ang lalaki, he goes crazy with a woman who he feels he could talk with for hours and anything under the sun. Yun parang walang nauulit na kwento, walang sawaan kausap, at pwede mong ikwento lahat lahat, lagi lagi. (I think what he's trying to say is someone who's not boring and he'd always have fun with). Yun ang wala kami eh. Yung "lagi lagi". Nami-miss ko na rin yung lagi kaming magkausap.

Please verify with him para maging transparent ang assumption (the one in bold letters above) mo sa kanya....

[Romanticure]

O sige, sa mga nakakakilala sakin dito, ako naman ngayon ang magpopost ng dilemma ko dito.

Oo, nagkaka-dilemma din ako. (hehe). Minor lang naman ito. I guess I just need a place to bounce my thoughts away. AKA, kelangan ko ng lugar kung saan pwedeng mantikaan ang mga turnilyo ko sa utak.

To make the story short, more than a month na akong wala sa trabaho (leave). And for some reason, I couldn't find anything to talk about with him anymore. I mean, hindi naman sa lahat ng oras noh, pero most of the time, there's nothing new to talk about really. Hindi naman ako ma-kwentong tao din. Parang, I am not the kind of person who recycles stories. Pag nakwento ko na, di ko na inuulit pa. Unlike him na gasgas na yung kwento / joke / punchline , ikwekwento pa rin, and surprisingly, he still gets the same reaction from the people who he makes kwento with. Gets?

We're friends, I know that. We're best of friends pa nga eh. Pero feeling ko ngayon may kulang. I don't know what. I love him. I care for him. But I know I need to do something to make our lives more interesting. I can't go out of the house. I couldn't even go malling. And somehow I feel it's boring us both.

Prior to me staying at home, I was darn busy. With a lot of things. Marami akong nakwekwento sa kanya. Marami akong nababalita sa kanya. Ngayon, wala na. I feel there's nothing much to make kwento anyway.


Here's my dilemma (oo, ngayon pa lang yun dilemma part. lol):
We're talking about something and nauwi kami dun sa part na sinabi niya ang lalaki, he goes crazy with a woman who he feels he could talk with for hours and anything under the sun. Yun parang walang nauulit na kwento, walang sawaan kausap, at pwede mong ikwento lahat lahat, lagi lagi. (I think what he's trying to say is someone who's not boring and he'd always have fun with). Yun ang wala kami eh. Yung "lagi lagi". Nami-miss ko na rin yung lagi kaming magkausap.

So... paano ko lalagiin? Ano ba ang pwede kong gawin? KASI sa ngayon, kakumpitensiya ko rin ang PSP at dota.

At hindi rin naman ako yun klase ng babae na magsasabi ng, "Kausapin mo naman ako, keme keme. Kulang ako sa atensiyon, keme keme. Ba't lagi ka na lang nagdodota/psp, keme keme." Ma-pride ako eh. Ang pinakamasasabi ko lang na malala ay "Miss na kita, hug mo ko. Mwah."

At once ko lang sasabihin yung miss ko siya. Sa tanan ng buhay namin mga 2 o 3 na beses ko lang ata nasabi sa kanyang miss ko na siya.


Hay.



Salamat sa mga magrereply.

- napaisip lang po.

1. Eat your pride, miss.
2. komunikasyon ang pinaka importante sa relasyon, nag papahaging na sya syo kaya nya kinuwento yun, dahil ayaw ka nya siguro biglain sa gusto nyang iparating syo or ...baka takot sya syo.
3. Lambingin mo, a bit of naughtiness perhaps, di na mag ppsp yan.

[kongersman]

Try phoneseks. Yun kasing linya ng BF mo na he likes someone na pwedeng niyang makausap on ANYTHING is a hint na yun ang gusto niya.

[hamsterson]

Hahaha.

Like I said sa topic ko, I just need to throw my thoughts somewhere to gain insight and clarity. Buti na lang there's anonymity in pex. lol.

What I've learned?

There was a deeper reason why it became an issue to me that we weren't "talking". It was more of I was realizing that I myself was becoming boring. I felt the whole relationship was becoming dull "to my standards". I didn't like the idle time that was happening between us. It felt that we're starting to run a rat race, or some sort of routine, which for me was quite frightening. Within the nooks and crooks of my mind I was challenging myself to "evolve", to become someone new. In such a way that I don't plateau on a certain type of personality where both of us would feel that we're both predictable. It was a challenge to myself, which I was painfully groping for answers. That's why I had to humble myself and throw my thoughts here in pex. I knew from the very start that I might be putting myself in a vulnerable position. But I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, I'd find the answer that I was looking for to bring about peace in myself and in my mind.

Evolving is not easy. It's like a butterfly coming out of its pupa. Thing is, butterflies do that just once, but with people, they have to constantly evolve to keep up with the changes of time. People change. Thing is, most of them change because of a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening around them... a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening WITHIN them. Little number of people change through lifetime as a result of sincere effort and want to change because they would like to become a better person. A better husband, a better wife, a better partner, a better son, a better daughter, a better parent, a better worker, a better boss... a better friend.

I was aware that evolving was not a one time thing. I made this thread because I felt ALARMED. I felt that as a person, I was starting to plateau on my daily interactions with the people around me, especially my partner. When it should not be. People keep the people that makes them feel happy. And that was what I was seeking to be. To be a happy and FUN person. No dull moment. I could be ONE. No doubt. Ask my friends, I am fun. But if you get to be with JUST ONE PERSON for like, weeks... things start to become dull. No matter how fun you are. Things become dull because things become predictable. And that what I was trying to break. The predictability of our daily events. I mean, I have no problem if my partner is somewhat dull sometimes, women could tolerate that to a such an extent. (though he's not, he's always happy, he always try to do something that twists the day). On the other hand, I know I am an alpha woman, and my partner is an alpha man. In my mind I know that an alpha male needs constant "stirring", you know, something that keeps him on the edge. Like a roller-coaster ride, who wants to ride a roller-coaster that's plain and boring and is going on a straight line, right? Don't get me wrong. It's not just my partner that's looking for such a ride, but most of us. However, some, because of mediocrity or maybe due to lack of options, settle. And it sux to settle. I don't settle. And I would like to assume my partner doesn't settle either (don't underestimate your "enemy" nga, ika nga).

So, after all the soul searching, some reading, and a lot of analyzation, I believe I'm coming up with a new version of me. It's cute. It's funny. Hehe. And, if I will be with myself for days, I won't feel bored.

Funny, I remember this tagline I made for myself in pex more than a year ago.

"Fluid. Amoral. Ethereal."

For a time I've lived up to it and I believe I gave those 3 beautiful words justice. I now have realized that when it comes to living in this world, there should be constant progression as to who I am as a person. That "evolving" is my weapon, and is one of the things that would protect me from this evil, deadly thing called insecurity. Change is good. Change should be us.

Don't get me wrong. This wasn't just about me and my pursuit to be a better person for my partner. That is ridiculous. That would be pathetic. It was more of my pursuit to bring about a better version of me. For me. The change is subtle, nonetheless, unforgettable. Like in commercials, they don't show the same commercial for decades cos people get tired easily. Like in products, there's always a better version coming out, even sometimes showing the same product with a new packaging just to say that the product is undergoing change. Like SM, it never stays the same way in a quarter. There's always something new to look forward to, its facade changing as soon as it becomes predictable.

Like me, you've seen a side of me I've never shown before. But really, who can say here that he's already figured out me? Who can really say I really am female? Hehe. One pexer here might be right too. This dilemma could really be something that I was having some challenges with, or, this dilemma might be something that I made up to solicit for opinions.


Can anyone really tell, eh?

take it step by step wag madaliin nagiging complicated lang ang mga bagay pag ang isa sa inyo nag mamadali, your an intelligent girl and good opinions from people here in pex help you realize things.

[1delaX]

I dont know how you can be boring when you talk and talk and talk here hehe. Granted you're boring in real life, you can always excite him on cam. Guaranteed hindi ka magiging boring.

Seriously baka nga hindi kayo compatible or he's so bored with you already kasi wala ka nang maikuentong boring office stuffs and such hehe

[JUST_JT_]

Hahaha.

Like I said sa topic ko, I just need to throw my thoughts somewhere to gain insight and clarity. Buti na lang there's anonymity in pex. lol.

What I've learned?

There was a deeper reason why it became an issue to me that we weren't "talking". It was more of I was realizing that I myself was becoming boring. I felt the whole relationship was becoming dull "to my standards". I didn't like the idle time that was happening between us. It felt that we're starting to run a rat race, or some sort of routine, which for me was quite frightening. Within the nooks and crooks of my mind I was challenging myself to "evolve", to become someone new. In such a way that I don't plateau on a certain type of personality where both of us would feel that we're both predictable. It was a challenge to myself, which I was painfully groping for answers. That's why I had to humble myself and throw my thoughts here in pex. I knew from the very start that I might be putting myself in a vulnerable position. But I was hoping that maybe, just maybe, I'd find the answer that I was looking for to bring about peace in myself and in my mind.

Evolving is not easy. It's like a butterfly coming out of its pupa. Thing is, butterflies do that just once, but with people, they have to constantly evolve to keep up with the changes of time. People change. Thing is, most of them change because of a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening around them... a mere "reaction" to the things that's happening WITHIN them. Little number of people change through lifetime as a result of sincere effort and want to change because they would like to become a better person. A better husband, a better wife, a better partner, a better son, a better daughter, a better parent, a better worker, a better boss... a better friend.

I was aware that evolving was not a one time thing. I made this thread because I felt ALARMED. I felt that as a person, I was starting to plateau on my daily interactions with the people around me, especially my partner. When it should not be. People keep the people that makes them feel happy. And that was what I was seeking to be. To be a happy and FUN person. No dull moment. I could be ONE. No doubt. Ask my friends, I am fun. But if you get to be with JUST ONE PERSON for like, weeks... things start to become dull. No matter how fun you are. Things become dull because things become predictable. And that what I was trying to break. The predictability of our daily events. I mean, I have no problem if my partner is somewhat dull sometimes, women could tolerate that to a such an extent. (though he's not, he's always happy, he always try to do something that twists the day). On the other hand, I know I am an alpha woman, and my partner is an alpha man. In my mind I know that an alpha male needs constant "stirring", you know, something that keeps him on the edge. Like a roller-coaster ride, who wants to ride a roller-coaster that's plain and boring and is going on a straight line, right? Don't get me wrong. It's not just my partner that's looking for such a ride, but most of us. However, some, because of mediocrity or maybe due to lack of options, settle. And it sux to settle. I don't settle. And I would like to assume my partner doesn't settle either (don't underestimate your "enemy" nga, ika nga).

So, after all the soul searching, some reading, and a lot of analyzation, I believe I'm coming up with a new version of me. It's cute. It's funny. Hehe. And, if I will be with myself for days, I won't feel bored.

Funny, I remember this tagline I made for myself in pex more than a year ago.

"Fluid. Amoral. Ethereal."

For a time I've lived up to it and I believe I gave those 3 beautiful words justice. I now have realized that when it comes to living in this world, there should be constant progression as to who I am as a person. That "evolving" is my weapon, and is one of the things that would protect me from this evil, deadly thing called insecurity. Change is good. Change should be us.

Don't get me wrong. This wasn't just about me and my pursuit to be a better person for my partner. That is ridiculous. That would be pathetic. It was more of my pursuit to bring about a better version of me. For me. The change is subtle, nonetheless, unforgettable. Like in commercials, they don't show the same commercial for decades cos people get tired easily. Like in products, there's always a better version coming out, even sometimes showing the same product with a new packaging just to say that the product is undergoing change. Like SM, it never stays the same way in a quarter. There's always something new to look forward to, its facade changing as soon as it becomes predictable.

Like me, you've seen a side of me I've never shown before. But really, who can say here that he's already figured out me? Who can really say I really am female? Hehe. One pexer here might be right too. This dilemma could really be something that I was having some challenges with, or, this dilemma might be something that I made up to solicit for opinions.


Can anyone really tell, eh?

^^ TMI either you're boring or not to your bf that is your issue sus daming pang yak yak

[adiposethoughts]

^^ TMI either you're boring or not to your bf that is your issue sus daming pang yak yak

yak yak yak yak yak yak yak!!!!!!!