I need an urgent advice with respect to my situation.
I'm totally now in a state of confusion with what is my real indentity. GUY or the other one? What do I prefer, a Girl or my a collegue of mine?
Here's my situation:
I kinda say I'm a straight guy outside but inside i'm totally soft esp. in case I see artista-looking boys. Because of curiousity, I've had sex with 3 boys(for three times) just an oral sex. not the sex as in full blow. But everytime it ends, it gives always sense of regrets as it that it lowers my integrity, and any sorts of. In short, not satisfied.
Also, I watched porn. When I was still in upper school (High school), I always watch Gay porn. It gives me satisfaction. And then, it come to a point, (it happened when I was in college), that I don't want to watched them (saturated). Then, suddenly, out of my curiousity, I watched straight porn. and then, i felt also the satisfaction.
Additional points: I love boys only with their looks. penis. but after all, it gives me the 'bitin stage' still.
I also love girls because I know what they can give. Kids. Good life, etc.
Tapos, I want na magkaroon ng kids and have someone whom I'll be with the rest of my life.
Who am I po ba talaga? Am I just following usual norms? Totally confused.
PS: I've never had any relationships.
CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVICE? or comment to my identity with respect to my situation.