Confession of A Lonely Person

[paolo_8591]

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Hello sa lahat ng loners at lonely dyan!

Here’s my case:

I’m a closeted homo - couldn’t get more lonesome than this.

Tanong ng isang character ni Paulo Coelho sa “Eleven Minutes”: “Do you know who the loneliest people in the world is?”

“The executive… [who] has no one to talk to”...

I had yearly best friends in elementary, barkadas and a best friend in high school, and a barkada and another best friend in college. Now I’m back in school, made friends with classmates from another country, religious order, academic discipline, professional background, age bracket, so on. Connecting with them is easy, mingling is easier, but sharing my self with them is just difficult. Because I keep a huge part of myself veiled from friends, our relationships are not a hundred per cent full. Through time, I hope those half-filled relationships will finally become full. At present, a few friends consider me as one of, if not, their best friends. My girlfriend, on the other hand, accepted my past homosexual acts and embraced me a hundred and ten percent full. These blessings are enough to ease abrupt feelings of loneliness.

I’m with you, guys and girls. Be happy!

Cheers!

Paolo

[verniel_cutar]

ako minsan lonely..pero hinde **** ako friendless. Ang dami ko kakilala sa campus kahit mga tga-ibang block at ibang department pa nga. Pag nglalakad ako sa campus mdameng bumabati sa kin, pero somehow, konti lang **** yung parati kong kasama. Mas prefer ko kase yung isa or dalawang tao lang ang kasama ko...at tlgang gusto ko sincere yung friendship. Minsan kase pag may ksama akong isang batalyong tropa..parang mababaw lang yung pagkakilala sa isa't isa..parang shallow...at puro kalokohan lang ang ginagawa..kaya mas trip kong lumayo sa mga ganun.

I'm lonely sometimes after class...*** ako ksabay umuwi..at parang *** na ko reason tumambay sa skul or makipagkulitan..dahil *** **** akong barkada..hehe.at minsan lonely din kpag may ksama nga ako..pero meju hinde nkaka-relate sa akin..kaya ako na lang ang nag-aadjust!! ang hirap ng gnun..plagi na *** ikaw ang nag-aadjust sa ibang tao. haiii

At meron akong ngugustuhan na isang girl from BS tourism..pero mejo ntatakot ako na masyadong mging close sa kanya..kase bka ma-turn off lang siya pag nkilala nya **** ko at mgkaroon siya ng impression na ako ay isang 'nerdy type' (although hinde **** ako nerd...meju loner lang minsan). Meju 'cool' kase at sosyalin ang gurl na yun..hehe. Kaya ayun...meju sad ang yugto na yun..hehe

Ayun lang ang kwento ng buhay ko!

[mr.6footer]

to twerp and simple-alex.., i really felt that way parang ang lungkot2x ng buhay ko...marami akong friend, kakilala or acquitances lang na matatawag pero pag sinabi mo talagang barkada na kasama sa gimikan at kalokohan *** ako nun....masarap din nmn akong kausap at mabait pa...i really don't know what's wrong with me..,im not that nerd nmn...mporma din nmn ako **** papaanu...pero most of the time mag-isa *** talaga ako...

ang hirap ng gnitong life...gusto ko tlgng gwin ang usual na magbarkadahan...in short gusto ko talaga magkaroon ng barkada...yung magkaroon ng sense of belongingness na matatawag...

[monique:)]

ako may barkada... pero madalas left out ako.. we're a group of 11..

[jmfreak1028]

Wow...

Thank goodness I found this thread. I felt at home as soon as I read the stories posted here.

I like to think that I am a loner by choice. Yes I used to have a set of friends before but I ****ed up big time and chose to leave them all behind. How did I ****ed up? No idea. I guess it's because it was the first time I have a set of friends... Anyway, being a loner doesn't equate to being lonely. I'm alone and I'm happy. I'm happy with my books to accompany me during those cold nights.

I used to tell people about my life story. But this time, I will try to shut up and listen more. I remember someone saying earlier on this thread that being a loner is just a stage. To some it is, but for others, like me, it's no longer a stage but a choice. This is how I chose to live my life. Alone and happy.

Honestly speaking, there are times that I miss the company of my friends. Especially the drinking sessions we used to have every Saturday night. But what the heck, they're probably better off with out me.

Oh uhm, final thought, if anyone needs a friend, I'm available.

To Paolo_8591 and mr.6footer: Cheer up guys! Pips will come who will be a real friend to you

[paolo_8591]

Wow...

Thank goodness I found this thread. I felt at home as soon as I read the stories posted here.

I like to think that I am a loner by choice. Yes I used to have a set of friends before but I ****ed up big time and chose to leave them all behind. How did I ****ed up? No idea. I guess it's because it was the first time I have a set of friends... Anyway, being a loner doesn't equate to being lonely. I'm alone and I'm happy. I'm happy with my books to accompany me during those cold nights.

I used to tell people about my life story. But this time, I will try to shut up and listen more. I remember someone saying earlier on this thread that being a loner is just a stage. To some it is, but for others, like me, it's no longer a stage but a choice. This is how I chose to live my life. Alone and happy.

Honestly speaking, there are times that I miss the company of my friends. Especially the drinking sessions we used to have every Saturday night. But what the heck, they're probably better off with out me.

Oh uhm, final thought, if anyone needs a friend, I'm available.

To Paolo_8591 and mr.6footer: Cheer up guys! Pips will come who will be a real friend to you

Right. Being a loner doesn't always lead to loneliness especially if it's one's choice. But for most people in this thread, a sense of belongingness is the ultimate choice, that, for some reasons, always escapes their grasps.

Like jmfreak1028, being a loner is also a choice for me. Sabi nga ng girlfriend ko masyado daw ako independent. Pero kahit ganon, hinihintay ko pa din yung panahon na maipapakita ko na sa mga kaibigan yung kabuuan ng sarili ko.

Again, cheers!

[jmfreak1028]

Pero kahit ganon, hinihintay ko pa din yung panahon na maipapakita ko na sa mga kaibigan yung kabuuan ng sarili ko.

paolo_8591 i used to have a group of friends na puro closeta na kagaya mo. Nakakatawa na nakakatuwa. At sa totoo lang, nakakamiss din *** feeling na kasama ko sila.

Yes I agree that most, if not all, of the people here are looking for belongingness. And that's why I'm thankful about this thread. It gives that sense to those people like me

[paolo_8591]

paolo_8591 i used to have a group of friends na puro closeta na kagaya mo. Nakakatawa na nakakatuwa. At sa totoo lang, nakakamiss din *** feeling na kasama ko sila.

Yes I agree that most, if not all, of the people here are looking for belongingness. And that's why I'm thankful about this thread. It gives that sense to those people like me

Ganyang barkada ang wala ko, yung lahat closeted. Pano naman kasi 'ko makakakilala ng ganong tao e closeted nga, hehe!

Likewise agree that in this thread we find belongingness .
Tara, let's come together para hindi na "lonely" ang thread na 'to!

[jmfreak1028]

Ganyang barkada ang wala ko, yung lahat closeted. Pano naman kasi 'ko makakakilala ng ganong tao e closeted nga, hehe!

Likewise agree that in this thread we find belongingness .
Tara, let's come together para hindi na "lonely" ang thread na 'to!

Hahaha may point ka Pao. Yup let's get together para hindi na lonely ang thread na to! What say you guys?

Pao have you tried blogging? Madami dun hehehe.

[paolo_8591]

Hahaha may point ka Pao. Yup let's get together para hindi na lonely ang thread na to! What say you guys?

Pao have you tried blogging? Madami dun hehehe.

"Pao"...i'm liking how i'm being called here
JM na lang tawag ko sa'yo ha para madali?

Oo nga, magsama-sama tayo. Kwento pa tungkol sa inyo para mas makilala natin isa't-isa. There's more to our lives than the loneliness, right?

O, JM magkwento na,hehe..
(Tungkol sa blogging, isip pa ko ng tema kasi gusto ko i-attach sa adsense para kumita.) Tsaka ba't pa 'ko maghahanap ng kaibigan 'don, nandito na kayo, naks!

Matutulog na po muna..
See you all later

[jmfreak1028]

Tama! The more the merrier! Kaya pag marami na tayo, merry na

Kwento ko? Hehehe ****** madrama at malungkot. Next time na lang ***** (shy type daw oh?) hahaha

Yup Pao, JM would work just fine. Why don't you tell us your story first then I will answer it with mine

[paolo_8591]

Hello!

Sisimulan ko na ba ang pagkwento?hehe

Nasulat ko na sa mga nakaraang posts e, back read na lang, hehe..

Pero para masimulan na natin, 'eto:

Ang pangalan ko ay Paolo, 23 years old, may kasintahan, mag-aaral, mahilig sa musika, panitikan, at pelikula, at spoiled sa pamilya.

Pwede na ba yan?

Kayo naman

[jmfreak1028]

Hello!

Sisimulan ko na ba ang pagkwento?hehe

Nasulat ko na sa mga nakaraang posts e, back read na lang, hehe..

Pero para masimulan na natin, 'eto:

Ang pangalan ko ay Paolo, 23 years old, may kasintahan, mag-aaral, mahilig sa musika, panitikan, at pelikula, at spoiled sa pamilya.

Pwede na ba yan?

Kayo naman

Hahaha nice one Pao!

People call me John (Though it's far from my real name). I'm 25, working, loves reading, watching movies, not musically inclined, and currently living away from my family.

My brother and I were not allowed to go outside and play with other kids when we were young. Thus, I didn't have a friend until I was 15...

Hahaha I can't (or don't) finish my story hahaha... It's like a trip to memory lane...

[Kepyas_Lover]

up to now i'm still looking for a real happinness in my life!

[jmfreak1028]

up to now i'm still looking for a real happinness in my life!

Aren't we all Kepyas_Lover

But the question I ask myself is this: What will I do when I finally found real happiness?

What will you do Keps?

[paolo_8591]

Hahaha nice one Pao!

People call me John (Though it's far from my real name). I'm 25, working, loves reading, watching movies, not musically inclined, and currently living away from my family.

My brother and I were not allowed to go outside and play with other kids when we were young. Thus, I didn't have a friend until I was 15...

Hahaha I can't (or don't) finish my story hahaha... It's like a trip to memory lane...

Hi John

Mahilig din ako sa pagbabasa. Puro scholarly articles nga lang dahil sa school. May mga fiction nga ko nabibili 'pag book sale pero hanggang ngayon 'di pa nabubuksan. Pano, busy kakabasa ng mga post sa PEX

Tungkol sa childhood story mo, naalala ko tuloy yung mga ate ko kasi nung bata pa sila hindi sila pinalalabas ni lola 'pag tanghali para maglaro, so ang ginagawa ng isa kong ate tumatakas siya 'pag hapon habang siyesta time, tapos yung isa kong ate hindi makatakas kasi katabi nya si lola sa higaan.

Nung bata naman ako, sa probinsya yung first five years tapos dito na sa quezon city hanggang ngayon. Nagpalipat-lipat ako ng school nung elementary kasi palipat-lipat din ng bahay. Ayos naman kasi madami akong nagiging kaibigan sa bawat school na puntahan. Mahiyain nga 'ko dati e pero swerte naman at nagkakaron lagi ng 'bespren'.

'Eto muna sa ngayon ha, medyo mahaba na din 'to, hehe..

Yung iba kwento din kayo ng stories nyo

Hintayin namin ni John

[paolo_8591]

up to now i'm still looking for a real happinness in my life!

mahirap nga 'ata hanapin 'to

pero sabi ng isang quote: "There is no key to hapiness. The door is always open".

Cheer up Kepyas_Lover!

[jmfreak1028]

mahirap nga 'ata hanapin 'to

pero sabi ng isang quote: "There is no key to hapiness. The door is always open".

Cheer up Kepyas_Lover!

I agree Pao. So I stopped looking for it and started enjoying and seizing the moment. Carpe Diem!

Time will come Kepyas_Lover and everyone in this thread, including me, will be found by our true happiness

[paolo_8591]

Right..enjoy every moment that life presents us. Life's like a puzzle where formless pieces of moments will, in time, fit perfectly in empty spaces of uncertainty and finally form a picture of happiness.

[melanch0liac]

Speaking of happiness...

6 Ways to be Truly Happy:
http://atouchofmelancholy.com/blog/i...e-truly-happy/