dear diary..

[janey23]

Dear Diary,

Kill me. Why is it that whatever I do, I end up hurting someone SPECIAL to me and I also hurt myself..?



janey23

[D_S@int_SinneR]

Dear Diary,

I have no right to say this i know. I feel that I'm being unfaithful to my husband. But you're a diary right? nothing goes out, right?

I keep on looking up my ex's friendster and seeing that he has his own family now, his baby, his wife. I can't keep on thinking those what ifs... u know... there are so many what ifs in life..
whenever i see his son and his wife, i keep on thinking, what would life be if that's me on the picture? our baby, our living room, our house..

he is so kind that he's avoiding the instance the i'll see him. because if i do, i'll get hurt again. I don't want to contact him in anyway. But I just want to take a peek in his life. Just a little peek. or tell me diary, am i just hurting myself?


I feel a little sad these days.. i hate my boss. i want to resign but i have to find another job first of course.

I love my husband. I just don't know why every time we have a tampuhan, i'm thinking of my ex..... s**t!!

[hellmarch11]

Dear Diary,

life is a B!tch so learn how to F^uck it... daym... tough but a happy one...

[deep_pink]

dear diary,

halos isang taon na rin pala ang nakakaraan. hehehe! nakakatawa pero pag naaalala ko *** pagmomoda ko nuon dala ng sobrang kalungkutan and frustration. kahit na disappoint ako nuon at nafrustrate, happy na rin ako. kasi mas naging close kame *****. not that very close, pero mas maganda na ang relationship namin. don't get me wrong ha. di naman naging kame o nagkaroon ng ligawan. siguro, parang naging ideal man lang siya sa akin noon, na akala ko siya na. dagdag pa *** actions niya at *** post niya sa blog. oo *** post niya sa blog niya na di ko na naisave. actually, nasaved ko naman kaya lang sa sobrang frustration ko sa kanya, binura ko. but until now, i'm still thinking? bakit kaya niya binura? dahil may gf na siya. sana sa darating na panahon, sabihin mo sa akin *** dahilan o kaya naman, maitanong ko iyon. pero for now, i'm happy for him. hehehe promise! so pano ba yan? malapit nang mawala kami sa office. siguro, madalang ko nalang siyang makikita. kumbaga txt txt nalang. hehehe!!! sana naging hapi siya sa decision ko.
ay sus, dear diary... parang bangag na ako dito. parang wala na atang konek ang mga sinasabi ko. hehehe

[cUsmo gUrL]

dear diary,

last week i made a big decision for my life...for my direction...my my vices...i know this will help me alot...goin to Switzerland this July with help me become a better person with full of confident...goin there will make my whole family happy esp. my dad who's in heaven right now...i still cant tell you all about whats my prupose of goin in Switzerland...i will tell you when the time comes...

[janey23]

I miss my beloved...

janey23

[Mr. Romantiko]

Dear Diary,

Kill me. Why is it that whatever I do, I end up hurting someone SPECIAL to me and I also hurt myself..?



janey23

Pssst! Hey Dear diary... Don't you say that to yourself, dont dwell too much on that problem... it's like as if you're saying im already dead. Everybody has their share of sufferings the only difference is how they deal with it and killing yourself is not the solution.

Kung hindi mo kayang pahalagahan ang sarili mo ako kaya kitang pahalagahan...

[janey23]

Pssst! Hey Dear diary... Don't you say that to yourself, dont dwell too much on that problem... it's like as if you're saying im already dead. Everybody has their share of sufferings the only difference is how they deal with it and killing yourself is not the solution.

Kung hindi mo kayang pahalagahan ang sarili mo ako kaya kitang pahalagahan...

i'm speechless.. thank you..

[Keara]

Dear Diary,

Nakakapagod pa lang magkunyari na ok ka na pero hindi pa rin pala. Akala ko rin ok na ko eh! Akala ko na let go ko na talaga siya.

Parang nagawa ko naman mag let go, pero hindi ko naiintindihan kung bakit ganito pa rin ang feeligs ko para sa kanya. Sana nung nagdecide ako na "tama na".....tumigil na rin akong magmahal sa kanya.

Eh kaso parang hindi ganon ang nangyayari....love ko pa rin siya...

At hindi ko magawang magalit sa kanya....

Nakakapagod.......sana tumigil na kong mahalin siya .....

Keara

[voluptuous29]

dear diary,

sana kung anu man ito ay may magandang mangyari. pag nagkataon ako na ang pinakamasayang tao. sana.. sana.. sana..

V

[kabitNIshaider]

Dear Diary,

i woke up this morning feeling like a sh!t again. i'm so fucked up and i don't know what to do. the weather is too nice and i feel like going out and enjoy the beautiful sunny day. but i can't i am tremendously depressed. i hate myself because i became so dependent on my bf i hate it! i don't know what to do and my paranoia is killing me! i remember last year same day same month . i was so happy because i thought i found someone who can love me. he's the nicest guy i ever met. i like every single thing about him. i never thought that he would make me fall so hard to the point that i don't know how to regain myself. i hate it i hate it. they say being in love is the most wonderful feeling in this world but why is it that im feeling the opposite? i seriously don;t know what to do. please help me. =(

[kabitNIshaider]

dear diary

niloloko lang ako ng bf ko =( hindi ko alam kung ano na ang gagawin ko. pangalawang beses na ito. hindi na ako nadala. bakit kase kung ayaw na niya saken hindi na lang niya sabihin diba? mahirap ba talaga? wala naman ako ginawang masama e, kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung paano niya nagawa saken ito. sana maisip din niya na may nasasaktan, at ako iyon. d bale mukha naman mabait iyon babae kaya hindi na ako magtataka na nahulog loob mo sa kanya pero ang sakit lang saken e. sobrang sakit, hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. sana bukas pagka gising ko wala na iyon sakit. hindi na kita iniisip. pwede ba iyon? ='(

[silverboo]

dear diary,

Malapit na. malapit ng dumating ang pagkakataon ko.. pero nagdadalawang-isip pa din ako. Should i stay or should i go? fresh start ako dun pero takot ako maging independent, maging mag1. Di ko pa lam anong magiging decision ko. i want to leave, but something(or someone) is pulling me to stay here. i dunno.. bahala na siguro.. bahala na si batman..

[janey23]

Dear Diary,

I am freaking out now.. :'(

janey23

[soltera81]

Dear Diary,

I think what I'm feeling now is the awareness that I'm not always prepared, and that the world will not always provide me what I think I'm entitled to, and that not everyone will play by the same standards of what I think is right and wrong and good and evil.

[ktkulit]

Dear diary,
i want to be with him sooo badly. i know for a fact that i love him...pero its him thats holding everything back..parang i know that he feels something for me and we're almost there pero di namin kaya aminin sa isat isa na more than friends ang tingin namin sa isat isa. we're really close lately...closer than we've ever been before. hes always walking and standing really really close to me and everytime i feel our hands brush against each other i cant help but wish that he would just hold me...tanging siya lang ang may alam kung ano ang tunay na ugali ko. pag galit ako..pag masaya ako...if not in a good mood lahat ng secreto ko alam na nya... i love him, i wanna be with him..but i dont know if it will happen, i'm really not sure...

KT

[kabitNIshaider]

dear diary

nahihirapan na ako ayaw ko na. pagod na pagod na ako gusto ko na siya iwan pero hindi ko magawa. mahal na mahal ko siya pero nasasaktan na ako e. hindi ko na alam kung ano pa ang paniniwalaan ko. gusto ko na kumawala sa kanya pero matigas iyon puso ko e ayaw makinig. iyong utak ko ayaw na pero iyon puso ko sige pa din. ayaw ko na talaga =(

[maegsoron]

I had a terrible weekend. My dad got angry with me over his stupid cellfone, we didn't get to celebrate Father's Day.

I dreamt of Burn. He came to visit and said that his imaginary friend died.

Dreamt that I had a baby... but my friend was the surrogate mother.

Been thinking of chicken little. I wonder how he's doing with his new gf...

[maegsoron]

Having a bad day again. It started out okay. There was no traffic and I was able to sit on the bus on my way to work. But things started getting crappy when I checked my email. I had to log in to a different computer because someone else was using the one I've been using these past few days. Had to set up everything again. Then I got an email from my boss asking me to email him my goals for the this year. I didn't even want this job, they just placed me here because there was no other account. Been waiting for that position to get posted for almost a year now... so tempting to resign but it's home.

It also happens to be my ex's birthday today. I planned on writing him a testimonial and to give him a call, but this was before he told me that he's got a new gf. So I settled on sending him a card. I know it's over and we should both move on. I don't know why I'm sad. I'm not sure if I want to get an acknowledgement from him about the card, or a birthday greeting cuz mine is a few days after his. I'm not sure if I care if he gets it or not. I guess I do, else why did I send it at all. I want to be friends but it hurts and I'm having difficulty dealing with all this because we were never just friends.. And I've been avoiding him to protect myself from getting more hurt. But I don't want him to feel that I've been avoiding him. I'm pretending that I'm fine, I'm happily living my life without him. But for every day that passes that I do not hear from him, I interpret it as another day that he didn't remember or think about me. And this depresses me even more.

[prinSesZa]

dear diary,

things are really different now and it hurts me so much but i don't know why..