dear diary..

[baklita]

myopinion... di diary angyong kailangan... punta ka kay madam auring, noh!

aihihihi!!!

baklita

[inLUvWit'U]

dear diary

until when can i hold on? malapit na ba akong sumuko? or id still continue to love the person who is currently hurting me right now?

kelan ko makikita ang outside force na sinasabi ni baklita, which in a way would divert my attention?

love...

inLUvWit'U

[Mz.027]

Dear Diary

Miss ko na sya... alm mo itried to make a story *** malamn kung mgaaalala sya sakin. but u know what... wala hindi sya ngreply... uu miss ko nga sya pero... now i know wala n talga... ill just forget you.. hayzzzz...

mz.027

[janey23]

Dear diary,
well, frist and foremrost gusto kong magpasalamat sa lahat ng tao dito na nagbigay ng adivice kung ano ang dapat kong gawain..honestly its really helping. konti konti i'm learning to let go and learning to finally just love myself muna..di ko muna kailangan na magmahal. and tama ang mga sinasabi nila na di ko deserve ang masaktan, kung ipagpapatuloy ko man ang umasa sa dalawang ito na di naman karapatdapat sa pagmamahal ko..lalo lang ako masasaktan..kakayanin ko to, pangako ko sa sarili ko. writing here in this thread is really helping to express how i feel, i think i will be doing this everyday. For all the people who read what i post sana u understand how i feel and understand that this is my way of letting things out. Thank You!

KT

KT

you deserve joy and happinness.. babae tayo e.. yup, i understand you.. and i care, okay?

[janey23]

Dear Diary,

i have one question.. Why is he hurting me this much when he knows how much I love him? Naging kami pa kung gaganituhin lang niya ko..

damn life..

Janey

[inLUvWit'U]

Dear Diary,

i have one question.. Why is he hurting me this much when he knows how much I love him? Naging kami pa kung gaganituhin lang niya ko..

damn life..

Janey

Dear diary,

i want to tell janey that i think there is a reasonable explanation for everything..

i always believe on the positive side of every human being and i think nobody intentionally hurt someone else for no reason at all...

its just that, you would feel too much pain when you learned to love. and you will never feel happy if you never get hurt before..

inLUvWit'u

[jillian_erica]

Three yellow rose on your grave.. on your 1st death anniversary *late* rosalia




Til I Can Make It On My Own
by
:Martina McBride


I'll need time
To get you off my mind
I may sometimes bother you
Try to be in touch with you
Even ask too much of you
From time to time

Now and then
Lord ya know I'll need a friend
Til I get used to losing you
Let me keep on using you
Til I can make it on my own

I'll get by
But no matter how I try
There'll be times you know I'll call
Chances are my tears will fall
And I'll have no pride at all
From time to time

But they say
Oh there'll be a brighter day
But til then I'll lean on you
That's all I mean to do
Til I can make it on my own

Surely someday I'll look up and see the mornin sun
Without another lonely night behind me
Then I'll know I'm over you and all my cryin's done
No more hurtin memories will find me

But til then
Lord ya know I'm gonna need a friend
Til I get used to losing you
Let me keep on using you
Til I can make it on my own
Til I can make it on my own...

[Mz.027]

Dear Diary

Im here again... but with tears on my eyes... siguro nga i shoudnt expect anything from him... hindi naman kasi kami pero nasasaktan ako sa mga nakikita ko... my mahal n *** talaga sya... hay naiinis na ko sa sarili ko... sa ginagawa kong ito ako lang din naman ang nasasaktan... sana nga kung pwedeng ibalik yung time... bago sya kumanta... at sabhing mahal na mahal nya ako.. hay i hate this... alam mo my bf ako now.. and alam ko nasasaktan ko sya sa mga ping gagawa kong ito.. kc inoopen ko sknya lhat ng ito.. pero he still on my side... hay sana nga mapasaya ko bf ko... naiging ***** nanaman ako... sa mga ito..nxt time na sabhin nyanng... mahal nya ako... i woont even believe it... coz it might break my heart again.. now i will love my bf more... **** n ba mgkalayo ***... ill make him feel special... in the simples way i can do... baby sory... for this.. ill just let those feelings go....

mz.027

[kahlua_needz]

dear diary...
for the first tym... i'll write to a diary like you, just to speak out this feeling, i just want you to know that this experience was not a good one, but then i know you could give me some relief about it, by the time i finish sharing this to you....so, let me start telling you about what's happening now... ksi, dito sa bahay nmin, was just me, my brother, the maid and the liasion partner of my aunt, its strange lang ksi, minsan *** umuuwin dito yung isa ong aunt ksi may work sya, and she has her own house din in Manila located at guadalupe sa Fort Bonifacio, my other aunt also had a house sa Iloilo (sa province nmin) may asawa na sya both of them are jobless, but, *** 2nd daughter nya is working for them coz the eldest eh nag stop from working bcoz nag-asawa and had a baby, so yun... un aunt na jobless was first to come here at our house sya yung nging guardian nmin, she is the one responsible for evrything before, since hndi pa dito ipinakiusap nung aunt ko (na may work) na dito muna sila ng liason partner nya, eh... ngayon *** aunt ko na po na may job yung humahawak ng pera, but then nakakainis lang kasi minsan uuwi sya dito, with a nice mood but the point na nakakainis eh ***** kpag may conflict *** ng liason partner nya sa amin naibubunton, not getting physically hurt but, ang dami mo maririnig sa knya bawat kusing inuusisa, may point na oo nga tma *** na mag-usisa sya dba? pero d point na the way she talk may ma-o-offend dba mali? like minsan sabi nya sa maid nmin na, maging thankful daw *** ksi and2 ***, kundi daw *** daw *** makakain? dba offensive?! eh nagpapadala **** *** parents nmin ng pera... mabait sya *** *** the way she lives parang, money rules her living, kuripot siya, minsan pa, unreasonable... tpos yun, ang dami nya comment, kesyo mabilis daw maubos ang stocks ng groceries and the bills, mareklamo, then binibida nya pa na minsan sya nag-babayad ng bills, how would i know? how would we know about it? eh di **** sya nagsasabi kung san sya humuhugot ng pera.. although i know she had her job and lam ko na may kalakihan suweldo nya... sna *** she doesn't let her lips/mouth to spit up such offensive words dba? yung tita ko na (jobless) was nkaka-awa kasi parang useless sya dito, and besides isang kahig isang tuka nga ***? maybe that not d ryt term but i think un ang pinaka-malapit.. so un po ang ginamit ko ha, nung first time na *** isa ko na tita *** nand2 na sya *** nag-ha-handle sa amin, prang abuso sya but then napatino ko din **** after a while, ksi i gave my feedbacks sa knya and hinihingi nya din yun everytime na magkaroon *** ng argument... so un nagbago sya, pro ngayon itong tita ko (*** may work) (cnxa kung redundant) eh di ko msyado ma bigyan ng isang mgandang argument, ewan ko kung natatkot ako sa knya, or its just na yung the way she gets mad is reasonable enough and surely may point *** reason... *** *** the problem is minsan nasosobrahan, she doesn't take compliments or feedbacks from other people unlike nung isa po.. coz *** nya yung sarili nya eh.. she is working as police and may kataasan ang rank nya... sa office sya nka designate not on the field... s yun.. di ko **** alam kung pano, gagawin ko... but then... at least i had speak out about this. and somewhat i think i'm lightly relief from this kind of feeling... hay till here muna... got to go.. at baka ma-abutan nya pa ako writing this onto you... she's calling me for dinner, but then tinapos muna kita, kasi im about 100% sure na after dinner she will use d computer, so i can't no longer have a connection with you... so till here and see you next time.. take care! and GOD Bless...

[kahlua_needz]

dear diary...
for the first tym... i'll write to a diary like you, just to speak out this feeling, i just want you to know that this experience was not a good one, but then i know you could give me some relief about it, by the time i finish sharing this to you....so, let me start telling you about what's happening now... ksi, dito sa bahay nmin, was just me, my brother, the maid and the liasion partner of my aunt, its strange lang ksi, minsan *** umuuwin dito yung isa ong aunt ksi may work sya, and she has her own house din in Manila located at guadalupe sa Fort Bonifacio, my other aunt also had a house sa Iloilo (sa province nmin) may asawa na sya both of them are jobless, but, *** 2nd daughter nya is working for them coz the eldest eh nag stop from working bcoz nag-asawa and had a baby, so yun... un aunt na jobless was first to come here at our house sya yung nging guardian nmin, she is the one responsible for evrything before, since hndi pa dito ipinakiusap nung aunt ko (na may work) na dito muna sila ng liason partner nya, eh... ngayon *** aunt ko na po na may job yung humahawak ng pera, but then nakakainis lang kasi minsan uuwi sya dito, with a nice mood but the point na nakakainis eh ***** kpag may conflict *** ng liason partner nya sa amin naibubunton, not getting physically hurt but, ang dami mo maririnig sa knya bawat kusing inuusisa, may point na oo nga tma *** na mag-usisa sya dba? pero d point na the way she talk may ma-o-offend dba mali? like minsan sabi nya sa maid nmin na, maging thankful daw *** ksi and2 ***, kundi daw *** daw *** makakain? dba offensive?! eh nagpapadala **** *** parents nmin ng pera... mabait sya *** *** the way she lives parang, money rules her living, kuripot siya, minsan pa, unreasonable... tpos yun, ang dami nya comment, kesyo mabilis daw maubos ang stocks ng groceries and the bills, mareklamo, then binibida nya pa na minsan sya nag-babayad ng bills, how would i know? how would we know about it? eh di **** sya nagsasabi kung san sya humuhugot ng pera.. although i know she had her job and lam ko na may kalakihan suweldo nya... sna *** she doesn't let her lips/mouth to spit up such offensive words dba? yung tita ko na (jobless) was nkaka-awa kasi parang useless sya dito, and besides isang kahig isang tuka nga ***? maybe that not d ryt term but i think un ang pinaka-malapit.. so un po ang ginamit ko ha, nung first time na *** isa ko na tita *** nand2 na sya *** nag-ha-handle sa amin, prang abuso sya but then napatino ko din **** after a while, ksi i gave my feedbacks sa knya and hinihingi nya din yun everytime na magkaroon *** ng argument... so un nagbago sya, pro ngayon itong tita ko (*** may work) (cnxa kung redundant) eh di ko msyado ma bigyan ng isang mgandang argument, ewan ko kung natatkot ako sa knya, or its just na yung the way she gets mad is reasonable enough and surely may point *** reason... *** *** the problem is minsan nasosobrahan, she doesn't take compliments or feedbacks from other people unlike nung isa po.. coz *** nya yung sarili nya eh.. she is working as police and may kataasan ang rank nya... sa office sya nka designate not on the field... s yun.. di ko **** alam kung pano, gagawin ko... but then... at least i had speak out about this. and somewhat i think i'm lightly relief from this kind of feeling... hay till here muna... got to go.. at baka ma-abutan nya pa ako writing this onto you... she's calling me for dinner, but then tinapos muna kita, kasi im about 100% sure na after dinner she will use d computer, so i can't no longer have a connection with you... so till here and see you next time.. take care! and GOD Bless...

[kahlua_needz]

oops... sorry... nadouble post ko po... see told you its my first time doing this... hehe... cnxa po...

[cUsmo gUrL]

dear diary

y do i still have feeling for my ex even he's married nah..i saw him last sunday at the restuarant holding his kid and i also saw his wife...when i saw him, i felt my heart sank and my body shiver...y? tsk..i miss him na tlaga....hay diary...bakit kaya...

[ktkulit]

dear diary,
hay naku... birthday na nya bukas... sana maging masya siya. alam ko naman kahit na masakit, di siya akin kaya wala akong karapatan na maging sweet sa kanya sa birthday nya. alam ko naman na best friend lang naman turing nya sa'kin eh..well ok na rin un..better than nothing di ba? well i'm gonna do my best para maging masaya siya in my own way. i have a small gift naman sa kanya eh.. and kailangan ako una bumati sa kanya..dahil ako nung birthday ko siya una bumati sakin. well sa sarili ko mahal na mahal ko siaya and sana masaya talga siya...my message for him..? Happy Happy Birthday! I hope ur happy and i'm alway always here for u!!!

KT

[inLUvWit'U]

dear diary,

hello... i really enjoy talking to you.. you've been my therapy for the past few weeks and i cant explain how much i appreciate you..

some people wont understand why i vent out my feelings here, but honestly, this is the only place where i can be true to myself. where everyone could judge the real me, yet in the long run, would be, somehow understand me...

you've been a great help for me.. for now, im going to say goodbye. id be away and might not be able to visit you again.. but im going to miss you...

i will see you in the next couple of weeks or months maybe.

thank you to all who wished me good luck here.. good luck to their lives too. thank you to everyone... hope and pray that everyone find each other's happiness, peace and contentment in heart..

good bye for now!!

inLUvWit'U

[janey23]

Dear diary,

i want to tell janey that i think there is a reasonable explanation for everything..

i always believe on the positive side of every human being and i think nobody intentionally hurt someone else for no reason at all...

its just that, you would feel too much pain when you learned to love. and you will never feel happy if you never get hurt before..

inLUvWit'u

inLUVWit'u

Thanks for being here.. I appreciate how open you guys are.. Hope that this thread somehow helped..

*hugs*

[janey23]

dear diary...
for the first tym... i'll write to a diary like you, just to speak out this feeling, i just want you to know that this experience was not a good one, but then i know you could give me some relief about it, by the time i finish sharing this to you....so, let me start telling you about what's happening now... ksi, dito sa bahay nmin, was just me, my brother, the maid and the liasion partner of my aunt, its strange lang ksi, minsan *** umuuwin dito yung isa ong aunt ksi may work sya, and she has her own house din in Manila located at guadalupe sa Fort Bonifacio, my other aunt also had a house sa Iloilo (sa province nmin) may asawa na sya both of them are jobless, but, *** 2nd daughter nya is working for them coz the eldest eh nag stop from working bcoz nag-asawa and had a baby, so yun... un aunt na jobless was first to come here at our house sya yung nging guardian nmin, she is the one responsible for evrything before, since hndi pa dito ipinakiusap nung aunt ko (na may work) na dito muna sila ng liason partner nya, eh... ngayon *** aunt ko na po na may job yung humahawak ng pera, but then nakakainis lang kasi minsan uuwi sya dito, with a nice mood but the point na nakakainis eh ***** kpag may conflict *** ng liason partner nya sa amin naibubunton, not getting physically hurt but, ang dami mo maririnig sa knya bawat kusing inuusisa, may point na oo nga tma *** na mag-usisa sya dba? pero d point na the way she talk may ma-o-offend dba mali? like minsan sabi nya sa maid nmin na, maging thankful daw *** ksi and2 ***, kundi daw *** daw *** makakain? dba offensive?! eh nagpapadala **** *** parents nmin ng pera... mabait sya *** *** the way she lives parang, money rules her living, kuripot siya, minsan pa, unreasonable... tpos yun, ang dami nya comment, kesyo mabilis daw maubos ang stocks ng groceries and the bills, mareklamo, then binibida nya pa na minsan sya nag-babayad ng bills, how would i know? how would we know about it? eh di **** sya nagsasabi kung san sya humuhugot ng pera.. although i know she had her job and lam ko na may kalakihan suweldo nya... sna *** she doesn't let her lips/mouth to spit up such offensive words dba? yung tita ko na (jobless) was nkaka-awa kasi parang useless sya dito, and besides isang kahig isang tuka nga ***? maybe that not d ryt term but i think un ang pinaka-malapit.. so un po ang ginamit ko ha, nung first time na *** isa ko na tita *** nand2 na sya *** nag-ha-handle sa amin, prang abuso sya but then napatino ko din **** after a while, ksi i gave my feedbacks sa knya and hinihingi nya din yun everytime na magkaroon *** ng argument... so un nagbago sya, pro ngayon itong tita ko (*** may work) (cnxa kung redundant) eh di ko msyado ma bigyan ng isang mgandang argument, ewan ko kung natatkot ako sa knya, or its just na yung the way she gets mad is reasonable enough and surely may point *** reason... *** *** the problem is minsan nasosobrahan, she doesn't take compliments or feedbacks from other people unlike nung isa po.. coz *** nya yung sarili nya eh.. she is working as police and may kataasan ang rank nya... sa office sya nka designate not on the field... s yun.. di ko **** alam kung pano, gagawin ko... but then... at least i had speak out about this. and somewhat i think i'm lightly relief from this kind of feeling... hay till here muna... got to go.. at baka ma-abutan nya pa ako writing this onto you... she's calling me for dinner, but then tinapos muna kita, kasi im about 100% sure na after dinner she will use d computer, so i can't no longer have a connection with you... so till here and see you next time.. take care! and GOD Bless...

sis.. i know what it feels like.. if you want to talk more, feel free to write in our diary..

*hugs*

[janey23]

dear diary

y do i still have feeling for my ex even he's married nah..i saw him last sunday at the restuarant holding his kid and i also saw his wife...when i saw him, i felt my heart sank and my body shiver...y? tsk..i miss him na tlaga....hay diary...bakit kaya...

feelings would never be gone.. sabi nga nila.. if two people were in love, even after 100 years, there will still be some of those feelings left no matter how much you both deny it.. yes, not in the same level na, but still meron pa rin..

[r3dguy]

.dear diary,

.may asawa na pala siya. i didn't know i don't know what to feel or do right now because it hurts.

.rg

[janey23]

dear diary,

hello... i really enjoy talking to you.. you've been my therapy for the past few weeks and i cant explain how much i appreciate you..

some people wont understand why i vent out my feelings here, but honestly, this is the only place where i can be true to myself. where everyone could judge the real me, yet in the long run, would be, somehow understand me...

you've been a great help for me.. for now, im going to say goodbye. id be away and might not be able to visit you again.. but im going to miss you...

i will see you in the next couple of weeks or months maybe.

thank you to all who wished me good luck here.. good luck to their lives too. thank you to everyone... hope and pray that everyone find each other's happiness, peace and contentment in heart..

good bye for now!!

inLUvWit'U

inLUvWit'U

our diary will miss you.. take care and God bless.. *hugs*

[janey23]

.dear diary,

.may asawa na pala siya. i didn't know i don't know what to feel or do right now because it hurts.

.rg

wow.. *hugs* numb is the initial reaction to situations like these..