My love story goes like this..

[inLUvWit'U]

you were two meters away from me. i asked you to go nearer. when you did, i asked you, "asan ang hug ko?" nagbibiro pa ako kahit kinakabahan ka na. gusto ko lang kase mawala *** tensyon sa ating dalawa. i opened my arms for you, and you hugged me. it was just a split second. hindi ko ata naramdaman na niyakap mo ako.

we went home. i initiated holding your hands. we took the long way. siguro trying to save the time we have that night. when we're almost there, i asked you again,"kiss ko?" i was just teasing you. but you did. you kissed me.. on my mandible... so sabi ko, wala naman eh.. sabi mo kelangan ba meron? sabi ko oo.. to my surprise, you kissed me on the lips and that kept my mouth shut. i was so shocked i cant say anything, up to this moment, that i remember my first kiss from you, i can still feel what i felt that very moment.

you walked ahead. i was left behind, speechless, shocked. still i didnt expect you to kiss me on the lips. you can give a friendly kiss on my cheek but not on my lips.

kung tayo ba after that... well, not.

along the way, i told you that you are one of the most wonderful thing that happened to me. hindi ka mahirap mahalin. you are so good. sa ating dalawa, siguro ako ang manloloko. sa ating dalawa, ikaw ang good at ako ang bad. tahimik ka, maingay ako. sinabi ko sa iyong hindi kita pipiliting mahalin ako. ayokong maging selfish sa iyo. masaya ako na nalaman ko na mahal mo ako. na espesyal ako sayo. na hindi ako pangkaraniwang kaibigan lang. it was just hard that even if we feel the same for each other, we know na hindi pwede. we both dont want to take the risk of "what if's" if ever na umalis ako at naghiwalay tayo. we both know na parehas lang nating sasaktan ang isa't isa. we both want to save the friendship that we had for the past years kesa magkasakitan tayo because of some relationship issues.

that night, we both went home happy, contented... that though we are not a couple, we are still friends. and we would always remain to be...

[maxieGRL]

im such a hopeless romantic...

what happened? ayun na un? Hindi kayo??
arrrggghhh! BITIN!!

[inLUvWit'U]

im such a hopeless romantic...

what happened? ayun na un? Hindi kayo??
arrrggghhh! BITIN!!

thanks for reading.. ako din hopeless romantic ako...

anyway, my relationship with him still have a long way... ill try to tell what happened after that night...

it doesnt have an ending yet.. until now, im searching. like everyone else who wants a happy ending, i am too... wishing that the end of a fairy tale would come true to me..

[inLUvWit'U]

I think i would love more the HOLY WEEK. I would always think of the good, fun days we had together. Parang isang linggong pag-ibig... ITs like a flower that bloomed on a wintry day...

And yes it is... It tried to grow on a winter soil... waited for the spring to come, showered with rain... until summer comes as it becomes a very beautiful flower...

Black Saturday...

You fetched me at the house for church that night... Kung me nagbago ba sa ating dalawa, siguro, hindi na ako nahihiya sa iyo. if ever man gusto ko maging sweet, ull understand.. well, i still know my limit... nothing changed with friendship.

when we arrived at the church, people from the town huddled around outside. bawal pa pumasok, and we have to wait. we saw some folks. we greeted them. we gave them due respect by doing the "mano po" thing.

we were standing outside, we're both looking on different side, waiting... one of the folks suddenly asked, "kelan ba kayo ikakasal?"...

i was startled... who's getting married? i looked behind me, there's nobody there.

the folk looked on both of us trying to convey that we're the one being asked...

so we both laughed... hindi nga tayo tapos bigla tayong ikakasal.. so i teased you. i asked you, "uy kelan ka daw ikakasal? ako kase, matagal pa, wala pa akong plano"

then you said, "ano ka ba?"

then the folk said again "ah wala pa ba? akala ko kase ikakasal na kayo"

as a respect, we corrected that we're not a couple.

as we go inside, you took my phone from me. we talked... like, "so pano na tayo ngayon?" you said, " aalis ka na bukas.. i guess ill see you after years..basta, be good.. and wag mo akong kalilimutan.. saka na lang tayo magusap kapag okay na ang lahat. kapag okay ka na at okay na rin ako. "

the hardest part in a relationship is saying goodbye when you dont want to let go at all... how could you say goodbye to someone who tried to lighten your day.. how could you say goodbye to someone who makes you smile...

i know ive been quiet that evening. i just listened to what you told me. ayaw kong magsalita kase i dont want to know what's inside of me. Baka kase gusto kita ng mas higit pa sa inaakala ko. at least i dont know how much i feel from you and i guess that wont be too hard for me if i leave you the next day...

... and there's this biatch...

hay naku.. bakit ba kase ang ex mo sunod ng sunod sa iyo.. she texted you, told you to look behind.. and there she was.. ang dami dami naman chair, bakit ba kelangan pa niya maupo sa likuran natin... she was so obssessed with you. i still remember when you told me that one of your cousin who's her friend told you that you ex-gf watched us as we talked on the ship the night we went to the province.. that she was so hurt seeing both of us together.. still, she waited until four in the morning, when we decided to sleep already, to went back to her cabin.. hello, you've been off for months already, hindi ba pwedeng tigilan ka na niya.. nasasaktan pala siya, bakit pa siya nagpupunta kung nasan tayong dalawa...

i pretended to be sweet to you. just to let her see that she should stop what she's doing.. we held each other's hand again. we even had the communion together.. a gay greeted you and told you, "you have nothing to hide from now on"

and we went home, had our goodbye kisses. when i was in bed. i browsed on my cell phone. i found out that i dont have your name on my contact list... you deleted your name.. and you were so damn wise.. you even erased all your messages from my inbox and my call log. now i realized, that you dont want us to talk...

pero siguro, im a monkey.. im wiser than you are.. coz you forgot one thing.. you didnt erase messages on my sent items which left your number...

coz if so, i wouldnt be able to talk you anymore... i didnt memorize your number at all... i have no idea that you would do that...

well, i dont know.. that night, i still have the strength to let you go..

[tungtung]

haba ng binasa ko ah. sana happy ending ito.

[baklita]

hoy threadstarter... pwede kong lagyan ng title angyong salaysay.

... the reseved and the bitin!
... the martyr and the advantaged!
... the martyr and the unsure!
... the love that almost bloomed!

ang haba ng iyong kwento... *** akong nagbabasa ng komiks.
naniwala prin ako na may darating na mas maganda at mas
matibay na lovelife sayong buhay.

angyong karanasan ay bahagi ng iyong kabataan na kinilig ka
ng husto... lalo na sa kalayuan o sa pagmamasid ngunit hindi
prin nagwagi ang "kung sana kami."

congrats sayong pagiging cum laude. siguro sa ibang bansa
mo makamit angyong personal at professional na buhay.

mabait akong kapitbahay... *** laang ay sunod ko ang isa
sa ten commandments... if thy neighbor's wife covets me I
shall not refuse, de vaah?

aihihihi!!!

baklita

[sleepyhead_]

whew.. haba nun ha.. pero ganda..

[pirateking]

tapos na ba? hindi nako nakapagtrabaho ah.

[pirateking]

tapos na ba? hindi nako nakapagtrabaho ah.

[white_chick0708]

well i guess there are things that you cant hold on forever.Love sometimes is too complicated. Sometimes its not just enough that you love someone, i like the story sana if god be willing u'll find urself being with him for the rest of your life

[pirateking]

haba ng story, para tayong nagbabasa ng pocketbook. NEXT CHAPTER!

[inLUvWit'U]

Akala ko rin tapos na ang lahat. na pagkatpos ng gabing un, lahat ay maglalaho. Bago ako bumalik ng Manila kinabukasan, nagpaalam ako sa kaibigan natin. Gustuhin ko mang magpunta sa tita ng bestfriend ko, hindi ko na ginawa. natatakot akong makita kang nakaupo sa veranda niyo.. ayaw ko ring makita ang bahay niyo kase baka maalala lang kita. mas masasaktan lang siguro ako.

habang nasa barko ako, sinubukan kong itext ang number mo. i said goodbye and thank you for all the good things we had together.. for making me happy and just for everything..

sabi mo, magkikita pa naman tayo.. it wasnt really goodbye.. maybe after a few years.. then you asked me, "will you marry me?"

"will you marry me if after eight years and we see each other, you're single, i am single, and everything has been settled down?"

i didnt have any doubt.. i said "yes, i will!"

you believed that somehow we'll see each other.. and you promised yourself that if that time comes, you wont ever let me go. you would make sure that ill be yours..

It was MONDAY. APRIL 17, 2006.

My first daw of review for my nursing exam. I lived then on one of the dirty streets of España.

You know what, it was all your fault. I was willing to forget you. i was willing to let you go. i know i could concentrate now on my review. not that im tellng that you would bother me.. pero as far as i know, my heart is at peace...

Pero bakit mo ako tinext? i was stopping myself to text you. i was trying my best not to. then you texted just to tell me good morning, na magisa ka dat day at malungkot ka. that you were listening to the music and the song currently being played was "Sana Maulit Muli" and that you miss me so much...

you know what, lahat ng lakas ng loob ko para kalimutan ka, naglaho. lahat ng pagpipigil ko sa sarili ko na wag masaydong mainvolve syo, nawala. coz there was just a thin line that separates me from missing you and you tried to cross that line and i cannot do anything at all to stop. coz from then on, we started conversing again. sweeter.. no "i love you's" i think but yes there is the "i miss you" word and the thing like "wish you were here with me"...

As days goes by, we promised each other that we're going out when you get back to Manila. i let myself fall into love that wasnt supposed to. i learned to tell myself to savor the moments that i am having with you. i try to forget the consequences of whatever action we are doing. im happy. im at peace. i wasnt bother too much by conscience or any other factor. so i supposed that i wasnt hurting anyone at all with what was happening to us.

I started telling story of you to my friends coz they always see me texting. and so they would ask, "sino na naman katext mo?" things like that..

and i would say "si___"..

they would always ask me, "boyfriend mo ba yan? o baka naman wala lang? totoo ba yan? sus, isa lang yan sa mga boylets mo"

and i would just smile. i dont really know what to tell them. recently kase, we exchange "iloveyou" na.. i know we're not just friends anymore.. we are not bestfriends either.

minsan, pag tinatanong nila ako, sasagutin ko silang pabiro na "oo, boyfriend ko. seryoso to.. iba to.for good"

the feeling was so good. the feeling was just hard to explain...

[inLUvWit'U]

hoy threadstarter... pwede kong lagyan ng title angyong salaysay.

... the reseved and the bitin!
... the martyr and the advantaged!
... the martyr and the unsure!
... the love that almost bloomed!

angyong karanasan ay bahagi ng iyong kabataan na kinilig ka
ng husto... lalo na sa kalayuan o sa pagmamasid ngunit hindi
prin nagwagi ang "kung sana kami."

congrats sayong pagiging cum laude. siguro sa ibang bansa
mo makamit angyong personal at professional na buhay.

baklita

u made me laugh.. u really did.. hehehh.. and thank you for what you have said.. much appreciated..

[inLUvWit'U]

One of the hardest thing in falling in love is knowing that you love the person, and the person love you back, there is this intense feeling of attraction between the two of you and yet you cannot say that, that one person you are in love with is not yours. that you cannot tell to yourself the words "he is mine!"

I wish i could call you mine.

but why can't i? you love me. i love you. I say "i'm yours" but why cant i say, "you're mine"?

as soon as you got back to Manila, we dated. did things that lovers do. we had happy moments. the only thing that never occured is that we fought. we never did fight. its that, we have nothing to fight but i guess both of us tried to understand each other's imperfections.

there were times na sobrang kulit ko at nakakainis na talaga ako, pero never ka nagalit. Lagi mo akong pinagpapasensyahan. I know there were times ive been too demanding. i asked you to do this for me, and do that. and you never complained. You always try to woo me. You have shown too much support on my review. You always believe on what i can do. Ikaw ang aking kape sa magdamag na pagpupuyat ko. Kahit alam mong inaantok ka, you won't sleep not unless i finish studying my lesson. You've given me so much hope especially at times when i wanted to quit and i tell you that its too tiring... that what am doing is so boring. you would crack jokes on me. you could make me laugh even if im a damsel in distress.

Siguro, im one of the girls who like celebrating anniversaries, a concrete date when we both say "i love you", a formality of being a couple. Since we're dating, i think it's just appropriate to know what's our real relationship. Coz i want to say you're my boyfriend kaya lang baka imagination ko lang yon. Baka kase, you treat me differently. Baka past time lang ako. I know you are still with your long time girlfriend from college.

On our way back to my dormitory, i asked you. "ano ba kita?" and you told me "boyfriend mo. di ba girlfriend kita? ayaw mo ba?"

the words "boyfriend mo" keep tickling my mind.so you're my boyfriend and i am your girl.. what a wonderful feeling...

sa kabila ng lahat, knowing na magkarelasyon tayo, hindi ko maidedeny sa sarili kong malungkot pa rin ako.

malungkot ako kase alam kong hindi rin naman magtatagal at magkakahiwalay tayo. malungkot ako kase alam ko sa sarili ko na sa ngayon, hinihiram ko lang ikaw sa tunay na nagmamay-ari sa iyo. i dont own you. someone else owns you, sadly, it wasnt me. i love you and you love me but i cannot tell everyone that you are mine. for somebody might object and tell me na im just imagining things. you cant never be mine. because, for a long time ago, you have given your heart to somebody else. so where could be my place in your heart?

[sleepyhead_]

hay... la pa kasunod?

[inLUvWit'U]

You have won the heart of my friends.. sabi nila sa akin, you're one of a kind.. sabi nila, you're the one worth keeping for the rest of one's life.

well, that was when i told them what happened when we're at the house alone together.. siguro, if you were some other guy, you would take advantage of the situation we were into. just the two of us. you have all your chances. i was willing to give in.

i have two thoughts in my mind that day.. if you asked me to make love with you, i wont refuse. on the other hand, i wish that you dont. its not that i would regret it but i was just testing if you are just the same as your other flocks..

i put you in a very awkward conditon where you can lost all your right mind... yet, you said "NO". you told me that, sex is not the basis of one's love. it's just a BONUS on a relationship. you didnt say it's not important, but a real and good relationship can last even if you dont have sex with your partner. you dont mind if we do it. you dont mind if we dont. you're not going to look for somebody else who would give in to you. if we do it, it would just strengthen our relationship, yet it doesnt mean that not doing it would weaken what we have... from then on, you had my full respect. coz you shown me too much respect too..

that's one of the reason why i love you.. that's why my friends do love you.

[sleepyhead_]

bat ganun? paikli na ng paikli *** post? hehe sori demanding..

[maxieGRL]

so kayo na?? haha excited!

[pirateking]

alam ko kung bakit ayaw nya makipag S3x ***, kasi baka pikutin mo

[baklita]

well, that was when i told them what happened when we're at the house alone together.. siguro, if you were some other guy, you would take advantage of the situation we were into. just the two of us. you have all your chances. i was willing to give in.

i have two thoughts in my mind that day.. if you asked me to make love with you, i wont refuse...

basta ako wlang paligoy-ligoy... aksyon agad. mahirap mabitin...
sus pati ang nakabitin... tuluyang maging lupaypay. now way!

should we deprive the opportunity if our bodies yell yes and our
telepathic minds totally agree? eh di kain na... prito sayo sakin
**** tinola. iba talga ang lasa ng manok, noh? sino *** satin
ang may mas malaking itlog?

aihihihi!!!

baklita