you were two meters away from me. i asked you to go nearer. when you did, i asked you, "asan ang hug ko?" nagbibiro pa ako kahit kinakabahan ka na. gusto ko lang kase mawala *** tensyon sa ating dalawa. i opened my arms for you, and you hugged me. it was just a split second. hindi ko ata naramdaman na niyakap mo ako.
we went home. i initiated holding your hands. we took the long way. siguro trying to save the time we have that night. when we're almost there, i asked you again,"kiss ko?" i was just teasing you. but you did. you kissed me.. on my mandible... so sabi ko, wala naman eh.. sabi mo kelangan ba meron? sabi ko oo.. to my surprise, you kissed me on the lips and that kept my mouth shut. i was so shocked i cant say anything, up to this moment, that i remember my first kiss from you, i can still feel what i felt that very moment.
you walked ahead. i was left behind, speechless, shocked. still i didnt expect you to kiss me on the lips. you can give a friendly kiss on my cheek but not on my lips.
kung tayo ba after that... well, not.
along the way, i told you that you are one of the most wonderful thing that happened to me. hindi ka mahirap mahalin. you are so good. sa ating dalawa, siguro ako ang manloloko. sa ating dalawa, ikaw ang good at ako ang bad. tahimik ka, maingay ako. sinabi ko sa iyong hindi kita pipiliting mahalin ako. ayokong maging selfish sa iyo. masaya ako na nalaman ko na mahal mo ako. na espesyal ako sayo. na hindi ako pangkaraniwang kaibigan lang. it was just hard that even if we feel the same for each other, we know na hindi pwede. we both dont want to take the risk of "what if's" if ever na umalis ako at naghiwalay tayo. we both know na parehas lang nating sasaktan ang isa't isa. we both want to save the friendship that we had for the past years kesa magkasakitan tayo because of some relationship issues.
that night, we both went home happy, contented... that though we are not a couple, we are still friends. and we would always remain to be...