[MERGED] Depression, Anxiety, Schizoprenia etc.(The Psychiatry thread)

[nikorii]

Hi, it's me again.. back with more questions..

I'm concerned because... the 'signs' na nararamdaman ko na may anxiety pa ko is my chest tightens and there's a weird feeling in my eyes when I look at things I feel disconnected from it..

but now, the tightening in my chest is gone and parang somehow I don't feel 'anxious' anymore but I still don't feel anything for him and it's driving me crazy because feeling ko 'gumaling' na ko pero wala pa rin akong nararamdaman for him.. that's IMPOSSIBLE because I NEED to feel for him again to be OKAY. Because that's the sign that I'm okay.. well, for me. Pero how do you know when you're cured of anxiety already? Kasi... everyday feels different. What I feel towards people and things have changed.. or parang wala pa rin akong nararamdaman na normalcy from before..

I'm still numb and stuff to the people and things that I love pero I've grown to accept it na sa ibang tao pero sa kanya.. parang WALA PA RIN AKONG NARARAMDAMAN di ko to kaya :'( gusto ko na maging tulad ng dati.. I cry everyday because I'm so tired of being numb and disconnected sa kanya. Alam ko kasi I KNOW IN MY HEAD and in my MIND that I love him pero di ko maramdaman sa body ko.. what does this mean? Nagsawa na ba talaga ako sa kanya? Di ko na ba talaga sya mahal? It's impossible talaga ( Pero ano ba naman magagawa ko.. I don't know what to do anymore and it's just so frustrating !

4 months na wala akong maramdaman para sa kanya sometimes I'm starting to lose hope minsan I wished that hindi nalang ako magising para di ko na maranasan na walang maramdaman sa kanya.. I'd rather be dead than not feel anything for him because I know nga na I love him pero DI KO TALAGA MARAMDAMAN :'(

I'm so desperate and I need a sure way to get my feelings back.. that's all I want

[nikorii]

I tell him I love him and I miss him and I want to be with him not because I FEEL like but because something inside me is telling me to say it... parang something tells me it's right that's why I say it. I MEAN it of course, that I love him and miss him and want to be with him pero I can't feel it parang what I know is so much different from what I feel and I don't know what to follow anymore.. help please (

[nikorii]

^ that's what I mean about doing things automatically

[heartstrings788]

Hi,

it seems to me that you are trying to hard to get back to normal. Like i said before, it takes time to be normal and it is never helpful to "try to hard" and "expect too much" because this will only cause more stress and anxiety. The more that you are "trying to feel normal" the less that you would feel normal because you will be going back to the old cycle again of anxiety. Do not count the number of days or months, do not monitor yourself because this will cause you to have too much "introspection" which is again not helpful.

the only way we can treat anxiety conditions is to "get out of your head and into your life".

Like i always said, give it more time and do not rush.

[nikorii]

omg thank god, a reply ( it's just that i've been so worried that my feelings for him would never come back.. that's the least that i want and every time I talk to him it's just haunting me yung parang 'oh~~ you don't feel anything for him' and then I start questioning my relationship and my love for him and then I start to panic again because i hate questioning my relationship with him because I KNOW I love him I JUST CAN'T FEEL IT. Pati sya nakukulitan na sakin cause I need constant reassurance again and again...

I'm really trying.. I'm just really scared to not think about it.. I try not to over-analyze for like a day or two.. and if my feelings still don't come back by then I give up and start questioning again because i get so worried that it's not coming back even if i don' think about it..

My feelings weirdly change from feeling weird to feeling nothing to feeling off.. it's just a different aura of feelings from this time to that time.. ugh.. i'm such a mess. i hate this (

[nikorii]

and it's weird even if i'm very relaxed... i still don't feel anything but sometimes if I'm in a better mood... I start to feel all okay and happy/loving but not like before. Weird talaga.

Kahit na relaxed ako, minsan di ko pa rin nararamdaman.. kaya natatakot ako na baka ganito na talaga ako forever kasi kahit di ako nagpapanic.. wala pa rin akong nararamdaman. What do I do about this? Is this normal for anxiety?

Pero minsan naman.. pasulpot sulpot feelings ko para sa kanya. May mga times na nararamdaman ko ulit pero super saglit lang tapos mawawala nanaman.. especially pag binabati ko.

and it's still so hard to be excited about the future, parang pag-iniisip ko yung mga gagawin ko in a week or two na masaya, di ko nararamdaman ang pagkasaya and pagkaexcite and stuff like that :'( Nakakainis na talaga.. Sawang sawa na talaga ako why can't I just feel something already ( Feeling ko pinaparusahan ako or something.. natatakot talaga ako na hindi to mawala.. i need my old me back.. soon..

[heartstrings788]

the problem with you is that you are "constantly checking yourself" and "constantly worrying about your feelings".

di ba i have pointed out before that these are the root causes of anxiety and depersonalization. you are doing it again, back to rumination mode, it's no wonder you are feeling not good again. you are going back to they cycle of anxiety and worry.

and from the looks of it, you haven't "ACCEPTED" anxiety and you are constantly pushing it away. this will only cause more stress to yourself, more anxiety and feelings of disconnection.

i would suggest that you do mindfulness breathing meditation for 8 weeks 20 minutes a day. learn about mindfulness on the internet.

mindful breathing meditation will help you learn acceptance to anxiety and it will help your mind to be more calm and it would also help you to avoid worrying.

meditation and acceptance has been working for me but ang problema ko lang is am very lazy to do it everyday. filling ABC Forms for Cognitive Behavior Therapy is also very effective and i do it once every other day.

kasi when you have those weird or not good feelings, you should have kindness, compassion and curiosity to those feelings instead of pushing them away. i guess you haven't learned it yet. minfull breathing should help you learn it.

if you can't commit to do medidation everyday for at least 8 weeks or fill up ABC forms for Cognitive Behavior Therapy then matagalang gamutan yan.

better get back na lang to anti-anxiety meds and antidepressant meds if you are not so committed to helping yourself.

[mp17]

hi heartstrings788 - are you a doctor or a councellor?

[Lightpost]

Good Afternoon fellow PEXers,

Mag-iinquire po sana ako kung saan ba pwedeng magpa-checkup kung meron man dito non sa Pinas. Napansin ko lang na hindi kasi ganun kalaganap yun dito....

Since elementary ko pa kasi na pansin na "I'm different" most of the time galing sa mga comments ng classmates and teachers ko.
Dumating din ang point na na-wierdohan 'ata yung Gf ko sakin and asked me to learn to "spend time and take care of myself" first.

I took the online Aspie Test (scored 26 = it's within the Aspie range as far as I can remember) but hindi talaga siya proof. Gusto ko lang i-confirm. Knowing this will let me know if I have to make more adjustments with my social interactions, and let people aware that I'm not their everyday Juan and many more.

Thanks!

[chill_00]

^ Neurologist might help you with your concern, kasi the disorder is a neurodevelopmental disorder. usually talaga early childhood siya nakikita pero hindi masyado nabibigyan ng pansin. karamihan late na nadedetect, tulad ng case mo. Medyo Identical sila ng symptoms ng Autism. ASD na ang tawag sa kanila ngayon. try to consult to Neurologist.

Online Aspie Test has a very low reliability coefficient, kasi possible that they just created the online test without any norms. It cannot really measure if a person has Asperger's syndrome. Better consult to a specialist about it.

[heartstrings788]

hi heartstrings788 - are you a doctor or a councellor?

I'm not a doctor or psyschologist. I am just someone who is suffering from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Panic Disorder, Anxiety and Mild Depression.

But i can give some good advise about anxiety and depression based from personal experience and research.

[dye_spinner]

i'm a guy diagnosed with panic disorder last 2006. Nag start ito abroad nung nagwowork ako sa Taiwan, na repatriate ako noon dahil sa lumalalang condition ko. And even I got home it still persists but after a year, I went to Davao, lived and worked there. Nandun pa din yung panic attacks minsan twice or thrice a month. And then I started going to gym. Gained weight from 48kg to 64kg. Medyo naging madalang at mild na lang ang attacks. Currently I'm in Afghanistan working in a war country pero peaceful naman ang camp namin. Work is stress free and there is also a gym. Laking tulong sakin ng pag exercise. I know na wala namang cure ito.. pero nasa pag dala lang.. I'm proud of my self 1 year na akong alang panic attacks.
And the most important thing is to PRAY.

Just sharing my experience.

[saweverything]

@ lightpost consult a psychiatrist not a neurologist.

[saweverything]

dye spinner actually there are treatments for panic disorder you dont have to suffer

[dye_spinner]

thanks.. but right now hindi naman ako nagsusuffer.. I think na di ko kailangan ng medications for the mean time. Ayoko rin kasing masanay sa mga meds..

[heartstrings788]

i'm a guy diagnosed with panic disorder last 2006. Nag start ito abroad nung nagwowork ako sa Taiwan, na repatriate ako noon dahil sa lumalalang condition ko. And even I got home it still persists but after a year, I went to Davao, lived and worked there. Nandun pa din yung panic attacks minsan twice or thrice a month. And then I started going to gym. Gained weight from 48kg to 64kg. Medyo naging madalang at mild na lang ang attacks. Currently I'm in Afghanistan working in a war country pero peaceful naman ang camp namin. Work is stress free and there is also a gym. Laking tulong sakin ng pag exercise. I know na wala namang cure ito.. pero nasa pag dala lang.. I'm proud of my self 1 year na akong alang panic attacks.
And the most important thing is to PRAY.

Just sharing my experience.

i also have Panic Disorder. exercise, mindfulness meditation and cognitive behavior therapy helps a lot.

bihira na ako tamaan ng panic attacks but ang problem ko naman ngayon is obsessive thinking since i also have ocd.

the best treatment for panic disorder is living a stress and worry free lifestyle with lots of physical activity (exercise gym). tapos siyempre do not be afraid of the symptoms of panic attack, learn to accept the bad feelings

i also do cardio but oftentimes get lazy but it is very very very important to get physical exercise if you have panic disorder.

May i ask kung ano yung physical and emotinal symptoms na nafeel mo when you hava panic attacks ?

For me the scarest part is yung feeling mo na parang mababaliw ka na tapos parang mag-ba-blackout ka na.

[dye_spinner]

tremors, parang manhid buong katawan, tapos sobrang pawis, tapos parang hinihingal hehee. tapos takot na takot.. ala nako symptoms for 1 year eh..

[chill_00]

Take note that Neurologist also specializes in AS, not just Psychiatrist. AS is a Neurological disorder. There is a dsyfunction in a way brain processes information. But Aspergers Disorder sometimes lead to a psychiatric disorder in a worst case scenario. American Psychiatric Association and the National Institute of Neurological disorders both recognize the existence of Aspergers Disorder. They often work hand and hand for patients with AS.

[Lightpost]

@ lightpost consult a psychiatrist not a neurologist.

Thanks! May advice ka po ba kung sino/saan madaling i-approach. Narinig ko rin na mahal daw ganitong klaseng consultation?

[Lightpost]

Take note that Neurologist also specializes in AS, not just Psychiatrist. AS is a Neurological disorder. There is a dsyfunction in a way brain processes information. But Aspergers Disorder sometimes lead to a psychiatric disorder in a worst case scenario. American Psychiatric Association and the National Institute of Neurological disorders both recognize the existence of Aspergers Disorder. They often work hand and hand for patients with AS.

Noted. Lumalala ba 'ito? Almost two years ago yung bunsong kapatid ko kasi napansin na nagkaroon ako ng mannerism kung pano ako kumurap ng mata. Baka eye problems lang. Natutunan ko pano ko iwasan yung mga iba pang mannerisms ko kaso mukha atang may nadedevelop akong bago habang tumatanda ako?
Bahala na nga. Tanong ko na lang kay doc!