I want to hear others' stories about their puppy love or first love. But first, here's mine.
I had this classmate in elementary. When we were in grade 6, he admitted that he had a crush on me at pinangalandakan nya un sa buong class. Ako naman eventually, nagkacrush na rin sa kanya. But later on, I knew it was something deeper than crush, admiration, or infatuation kasi the feeling was different from the feeling I had with my previous crushes. We were both young then so, ligaw-bata *** nangyari between us. Before graduation, on valentine's day, we exchanged valentine cards and he said on the card that he loved me. But I didn't admit that I felt the same way for him. He thought I liked someone else. Pagpasok ng high school, we parted ways kasi he enrolled in a private school at ako naman, dun pa rin sa public school. Nung nasa high school na kami, nung una, kinukumusta pa nya ako sa mga pinsan nya o sa mga friends namin. Hinahanap nya ako kung may okasyon. Pero never nangyari na nagmeet kami face to face at nagkausap until now na 25 yrs old na kami. Nung nasa high school kami, I waited for him na ituloy *** panliligaw nya pero hindi nangyari. And according to his cousins, di raw nya itinuloy panliligaw kasi marami na raw nanliligaw sa akin at baka may iba na ako nagugustuhan. Since di pa uso noon ang cellphone kahit landline sa lugar namin, nawalan talaga kami ng communication. Until nabalitaan ko na lang na may gf na sya. Lalo kaming nagkalayo nung college kasi I moved here in manila at sya naman dun itinuloy pagaaral sa province. Everytime na umuuwi ako sa province, I always wanted, hoped, and prayed, na magkita kami ulit. Kasi after all those years, di ko pa rin sya nakakalimutan talaga. Di ko nga alam kung bakit. Eh hindi naman sya gumawa ng effort para macontact ako. *****, gusto ko lang malaman *** mararamdaman ko at *** magiging reaction naming dalawa upon seeing each other. It's as if meeting him face to face again is like a ghost thatís haunting me all these years. But I wasn't expecting naman na madudugtungan *** love story namin, though di ko rin maiwasan magisip na what if single pa rin sya like me. However, nung last time na umuwi ako, I found out na he's already married with 1 kid and nasa Taiwan sya working. I never thought that it would hurt me so bad kasi akala ko, wala na *** feeling at super tagal na kaya un. Dun ko lang narealize na, *** na talagang chance for us. Na that's the reality and that's the end of our story. Tapos nakita ko pa *** mother nya at ang sabi may asawa na nga daw sya kasi di naman daw kami magkita-kita. Para bang may panghihinayang sa boses ng mother nya. ***** hindi talaga meant to be na magkita kami. Pero ganun ba talaga ang puppy love or fist love? Akala mo, na-outgrow mo na *** feelings for that person pero di naman pala. Ganun din ba ang nafeel ng karamihan dito?
Or it's just me. Na maybe rin, I'm feeling this way kasi sya, happily married na, na may happy family of his own na, and here I am, still single, still waiting for that someone (kung meron man nilaan si God) to come along. Na minsan ko ring pinangarap na sana sya (my puppy love) un.
Tnx for reading my long story. Pashare din naman po ng story nyo and insights about the topic. Thanks again.