i was in a LDR (long distance relationship) for quite some time. at first, break kami coz he (let's call him guy 1) doesn't want LDR. then after a week or 2, nagemail sha na he wants me back coz di daw niya kaya wala ako sa life niya. then after almost 4 months of fights and misuderstanding, i decided to break up with him. with us kasi, i sometimes feel like i was the only one who's exerting effort. he's gonna break up with me for some reason then biglang makikipagbalikan. feeling trapo naman ako ... kung kelan lang kailangan, chaka magiging kami. then we didn't talk for some time coz he got hurt. i then found someone else (let's call him guy 2). then after a couple of months, i went back to pinas for a couple of weeks.
when we saw each other ... wow, the feelings just flowed back. mejo naging kami, then the last day we saw each other, he proposed to me. then ayun, in other words, we got engaged. when i got back here i told my bf here na i have to break up with him coz narealize kong may feelings pa ko with ex. but since i love them both ... i just broke off the engagement as well. now, they're both sorta waiting for my decision kung sino sa kanilang 2 pipiliin ko.
lately, i've been contemplating ... be with guy 1 or guy 2?
guy 1 ... i know he's capable of exerting so much effort than what he has exerted in the past months pero di niya ginagawa (and i'm not basing this na magkalayo kami ... i'm basing it overall ... both nung andito ko sa US at nung nasa pinas ako na magkasama kami) i mean nakakagimik sha and all ... mtext man lang ako, di magawa... ano ba naman un; lapitin ng babae at malapit sa babae; gentleman sobra; sweet & sweet talker; ayaw nga lang sha ng family ko coz may pagkairresponsable at ang opinion ng iba, baka ako pa daw ang maging breadwinner if kami ang magkatuluyan; the worst part of all ay he hides things from me ... as in mga bad stuff. di daw niya sinasabi coz magagalit lang ako or mababad trip eh wala naman daw sense ... eh un na nga argument ko. kung wala lang, why dapat itago?
guy 2 ... sobrang bait; ok sa family ko; masaya kasama; responsable; childish (mind you ... hindi child-like ... childISH); madali makuntento sa mga bagay (which is both good and bad); ayaw na pinagsasabihan; ok ang family background; sobrang exert ng effort (and i'm not basing this on me being in the same country as he is right now ... i'm basing it overall ... both nung andito ko sa US at nung nasa pinas ako na magkalayo kami); may pagkaimmature; sobrang no history of playing or flirting; raised in a healthy environment; opinion ng iba is mas bright future ko sa kanya
so ... guy 1 or guy 2?